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16.02.12

2012-02-16T05:30:00.002-05:00

Hi it is 5.20am. If you saw my status, well let's just say I REALLY couldn't find anything to do.

I feel so numb, I think this physical discomfort, for the lack of better words, is due to my mental discomfort, again, for the lack of better words.

I've got a pouding headache, weird body temperature, and my nose is runny, but my nose is runny for a different reason. You see I woke up since like 5am, and I've been trying to fall back asleep but I can't because I feel so uncomfortable, then I began crying. Sorry Regan, and you're probably wondering why I'm saying sorry. Maybe I'll tell you later today, cause this is not fair for you. But if I don't, please don't take it personally.

My back is so sore, but my heart hurts even more, I don't know. It's just getting really irregular and it feels like I'm stopping my heart or something cause that's how much it hurts.

I'm sorry for disturbing all of you because of my petty problems. At least some of you. But it's just really hard for me now. I just need someone to talk to, about anything, just to distract me a bit so it wouldn't hurt so much. I don't even care if we just talk about ponies. In fact, ponies may even make me smile, so it's definitely a good thing to talk about.

Miao, this is not the place for me to blog now. Bye.

14.02.12

2012-02-14T18:12:00.006-05:00

Even though you're so mean to me,

I still love you. HMPH

Happy Valentines Day silly. ♥

There is nothing wrong with Valentines Day and celebrating love, but I guess being a relationship like mine where there are already 2 significant dates which I like to acknowledge monthly, another "Special Day" seems quite redundant. Not to mention it fell on a weekday, and there is no way in hell I'm going all the way back to Toronto in the middle of a Tuesday to spend it with Owen, and I'm sure he'll say the same.. he probably wouldn't say the world "hell" and what not, but you get the point.

In fact, I feel as though my parents are taking this day more significantly than I am. Trust me, you don't want to know my parent's Valentine's gift. My mom says it's her gift from my dad, because it will be under her name. Fair enough, I suppose.

So yesterday, did my psyc midterm, not bad and then went to this information session for this company and unexpectedly got interviewed by the Chairman and the vice-president of the company. Lucky for me, I did go to the session with dress pants and stuff. I don't think they are looking to hire a first year, but who knows maybe I've made a good enough impression for perhaps co-op next year.

And today, Regan, Melanie and Stacy actually went to pick up the clay stuff we did last week. They went without me cause I had class. So, if you don't remember what clay stuff I'm talking about, click here, and here is the final product!

Listening to "What Makes You Beautiful" by One Direction
Images by Me

13.02.12

2012-02-13T21:21:00.004-05:00

I can't explain it, what happened.

It was like a flash of lightning.

In fact it did rain, it rained hard.

but it wasn't just a flash of lightning that just happened,

it was forever.

Permanent. Like a tattoo, not even.

The walls came crumbling down,

we came down with it.

How could it be "the future seemed so bright",

but it was so bright, it blinded us all.

And then words were uttered

and it was all over,

but I stand here,

with the rain still pouring,

washing down my soul.

09.02.12

2012-02-09T18:40:00.000-05:00

Oh Mai Gawd.

I got an 85% for a midterm I swore I failed. It's not that great a mark I know, but the feeling of relief is just overwhelming. There was a reason I thought I was gonna fail, and it was mainly because I didn't really study for this midterm.

To be honest, I haven't been working very hard since the winter semester started, until last week when I did this term and freaked out, and I went from behind in everything to ahead in 3 classes. Obviously I've still some catching up to do, but I kinda wanna say thank you to my prof, for scaring the shit out of me into doing my work. Lesson learnt, I will not slack in university ever again.

Moving on, econs in class quiz tomorrow. I just to check my answers for #3 and I should be good to go as long as I remember the specifics of everything. Since memory is one of my strong points, I think I should be fine, but wish me luck anyway! Then psyc midterm on Monday. I am actually really excited for it, cause I studied a lot for it and I really love studying for it, so we're going to see how it goes!

But yes, I'm so relieved. But apparently sometime during March, I have some 4 midterms in a week? I will have to check my schedule. So yea, that's it for now. I'm going to get going. Can't wait for reading week. Partially to get super ahead in everything and partially I'll be seeing all my babes again! love love love!

Listening to "Trespassing" by Adam Lambert

07.02.12

2012-02-07T22:54:00.006-05:00

So the update on our party night.

Let's see. Mongolian Grill Monday was a complete flop, there was a Chemistry SLG and with the chemistry midterm around the corner, Stacy and Regan went, and Rachel was busy, so yea it just didn't work.

Clay Tuesday on the other hand. OMG I sped walk from class to try to catch the bus, but we ended up taking the slightly later bus anyway =_=. LOL we being Me Stacy Regan, and Melanie. I have to admit our of all 4 paintings, mine was probably the simplest and least artistic. Mel's was definitely the most artistic, and I guess it should be cause she actually draws and paints and what not.

Anyhow, it was super fun! Although time seems to go a lot faster when I paint o_O. I don't have all the pictures, in fact, I only have half the pictures. And all these are unfinished, cause it's clay and they have to fire it and coat it and stuff, so I'll put pictures of the finish product up sometime next week when I actually get it.

Here are the paint "pencils" (what I used for the letter and the heart on mine)

Here are mine... It's S for me or O for OWEN and they are salt and pepper shakers and they hug! I'll show u when I get the finished product! Hehehe it's cuter than I thought it is x)

Here are Regan's

Here are mine again, shots by Regan

And here is the whole table at the end! =)

Listening to "Put Your Hands Up In The Air" by ItaloBrothers
Images by Regan and Me

05.02.12

2012-02-05T00:31:00.000-05:00

Happy 8th month =) ♥

I still wake up some mornings

and go I have a boyfriend?

And I'm like, yeah a cute one! =P

Anyway, I've been thinking of Pokemon for the last few days. You see, when I was young, my dad bought me this pokemon CD. But for some reason, it can't save games. So everytime I played, I had to start from the beginning. What me and my sis would try to do is play as fast as possible cause we know the next time we play again, we have to start from the beginning.

So because of that, I guess I never really got very far in the game and I've definitely never finished the game. It's almost like an unfinished mission in life, and I have to admit every now and then I think about playing Pokemon and it'll be great if one day I get the game again that can be saved, so I can finish the game.

But yea, if I ever get the chance, I just want to play Pokemon Red, Yellow, and Gold. And I suppose if I play Yellow, I wouldn't bother with red cause I have Pikachu! xP I don't really want all the new funky versions, partially cause I don't recognize any of them, and that's not the reason why I will play pokemon right.

Oh, let me tell you all an egg story. So the other day I ordered breakfast, with 2 fried eggs, overeasy. So the "chef" cracked two eggs on those commercial flat cooking things. For some reason he takes out his egg piercer and pierced into one of the yolks of my egg. He immediately realizes his mistake, so he scraped that one egg off, and cracked a new egg in.

He cracks this 2nd egg in, and as soon as he does, he breaks the yolk. He ignores it, but he flipped it pre-maturely, so it came apart like freaking goo, so he scrapes that off, and cracks a 3rd egg. It all went well until he flipped the egg, and he cracked the yolk, ignored it and put it on my plate.

I ignored it too, cause I don't like to waste food but I must say he was really lucky I tried hard to not open my mouth and I did not write a comment card about it. Come to think about it, I so nice that day. I can tolerate a lot of things, but if you mess with my food, it's personal. And eggs? That's just a whole other level of personal.

And girl you do not mess up the accounting club email.There are a lot of things that can be messed up but the email is not one of them. A. I set up a really good emailing system and b. it's a business club. If you can't compose a simple email properly, you need to reconsider your career choice. I'm in university now and it is not worth my time to rectify something that is happening in high school that has nothing to do with me. So pick up the slack, get going, it's almost the end of the year, get your act together dear 2011/2012 Execs. If I get another set of inquiries, I will return to Haig and hunt you all down.

Listening to "Wherever You Will Go" by The Calling

04.02.12

2012-02-04T23:33:00.000-05:00

I know what you're thinking.

At least I think what you're thinking...

I haven't blogged for a REALLY long time, in my blog standards. I'm SO SORRY. It's been quite a week I must admit. 2 midterms, activities, notes etc. And I'm sick. Why is it that I am sick again? I don't know. Somehow it just turned out that I didn't have any time to blog. Also, I realize I have a total of 9 midterms, so February-March is going to be a shit time for me.

It seems like a beautiful Saturday morning today. Did my laundry, was gonna do my dishes, but I kinda got lazy, so I'll do that a bit later. Going to grab lunch soon. Weekends in Guelph are like my loner days cause everybody goes home.

Anyway the highlight of my week? Selling HTM clothing at the UC with Keny yesterday. We sold so many shirts, crewnecks & hoodies that the list was filled. We probably sold way over 20 of them in total, forgive me if I'm wrong but yea it was a lot. But so proud xP

Oh and this chocolate fudge cake:

I know I'm not suppose to eat chocolate when I have a sore throat, never mind an entire chocolate fudge cake. But it was a celebration for finishing my midterms and it was right there in the LA cafe so I was like, OMG must. get. cake. It is so good, just pure rich chocolate mmm. It's so pretty too! =) Happiness overload.

I should get another one! When I feel better of course. Next week aka two days from now is going to be epic win. I know it's midterm season but me and me Guelph girlfriends have been slacking on our weekly party night. Cause we missed so many nights including this week's party night, we are going to have TWO party nights next week.

Should I tell you what we're doing? Nah, I'll wait. So I have things to blog about. P.s. About an hour more before I can say Happy 8th month to my sexay Owen =) There's a possibility you'll see another blog post an hour from now. So come back! xP

Listening to "Right Here Waiting For You" by Richard Marx
Images by Me
*I actually really love the colour combo, thank you Anita! =)

27.01.12

2012-01-27T00:42:00.000-05:00

To like is an instant,

to love is a moment.

Et Voila, my new phone!

It's a LG C660R or LG Gossip Pro!

It's android! I didn't even know that >_<

But I didn't get a data plan... but whatever.

Latest update of my life? I finally got a linkedin account. Talk about bad timing, I was going to update it and then I thought yes this is important, but finishing my psyc paper is even more important. Which is exactly what I'm working on at the moment.

Buses in Guelph were at a stand still this morning cause of the snow. To be honest it wasn't that bad and I never knew that buses could legally just stop. I guess, technically if the weather is really bad then they could, but I've just never seen that happen until today.

The other day it was Rachel's birthday! And once again I made a bow. Haha I have a feeling I'm gonna make it my signature gift wrapping icon or something. Or not, I'll keep learning how to do new things! Spice up gift wrapping, since I've actually stopped literally wrapping gifts since forever.

Speaking of the snow, here are some pictures. They aren't so good, but it was actually really pretty today (as long as you don't focus on the wet puddles on the ground).

Listening to "The One That Got Away (Acoustic)" by Katy Perry
Images by lg.com & me

24.01.12

2012-01-24T20:56:00.002-05:00

Yeoreobun, ahn nyeong!

You know you've been watching too much 2NE1TV when you start remembering Korean phrases. I just said "Hello everyone!" I've been in a big story telling/blogging mood the past few days. I guess that's a good thing for all my readers right.

So first... my international texting plan started and I sent 4 Chinese New Year texts to 4 of my besties in Malaysia. Guess what, I realize that only one of the text went through cause I forgot to save the rest of my besties numbers with INTERNATIONAL CODE. JS, ZY, and LX, they all didn't get it because I expect my phone to know which country I'm freaking texting to. OH MY GAWD. I feel so dumb. Luckily CNY is more than 1 day so technically my greeting is not late. I think I'm gonna spam all my darlings in Malaysia a lot, so I hope this plan better be continued forever xP

Also, I have two midterms next week. I don't know what to feel cause it feels like we just started university right, and it's already the end of the month. But I'm still going home this weekend, for a delayed CNY celebration and cause I miss home >_<

OWH. In case you didn't notice, the shoutmix/chat box that use to be on the right of my page is GONE. In case you're wondering why. It's because they start charging money for all users, I'm sorry but I'm cheap. I mean I do earn a bit of money from blogging but it's way too little and inconsistent for me to spend any money on blogging. And when I say little I mean LITTLE. I only get 25cents for each ad click, you wanna know how many people who visit my blog click on my ads.. hardly. >_<

But yea I really need to get on top of my work.

So I'll ttyl! =) Ciao!

23.01.12

2012-01-23T15:35:00.000-05:00

I've created TWO new labels! "Food" and "SeaFoods". The difference is the 1st one is just ANY food in general and the latter is food that I've cooked (fully or partially). Thing is in future, esp next semester when I have a kitchen again, so I just wanna document my own progress. Obviously I haven't been blogging much about my own cooking, but that will change! Anyway, to commemorate my new food-related labels, I jdug up some food photos then I've never blogged before!

This was during summer 2009 in Penang, Malaysia. Back in the day when my photography skills were beyond crap, but these are the dishes in this restaurant called Sin Kheang Aun which is like my family favourite. Really good food!

This was in 2009 too. I remember I went out I think it was after my birthday buffet lunch or something. And by the time I got home from buffet, it was dinner time and I was starving and my mom made this super awesome tasty meal. And I gotta admit my mom can't really cook but there are a few meals she makes that are very memorable (in a good way)

This was in 2009 (still!). It was during the winter break, me and my family went on tour to the states. This was in Boston, where we had Lobster Chowder and the bowl is actually bread! Once again, forgive my bad photography skills but this was so good

This was in Mid Valley (The Gardens), Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. I dont remember the name of the restaurant, but the panini was especially good! (During Summer 2010)

This was in 2010. I remember I just came back from Canada and my mom didn't come back yet so I had to cook for my dad every dinner. So one night, I made this dish. Beef tenderloin, seasoned with salt & peppercorn & coated with butter, added garlic. It was suppose to be a western style dish when I started, but then I ended up adding dark & light soy sauce & chinese cooking wine. I think I added just a TOUCH of sesame oil too. Then for the first time in my cooking career, I popped the whole pan into the oven and then added the green beans at the end on top, so they were kinda steamed/ grilled. It tasted so good, the meat was just perfect. The irony was my dad ended up not eating dinner at home that night because he had to finish this project. T_T LOL.

Anyhow, I hope you'll enjoy my new food labels! I will work hard to constantly add new posts about food! =) Ciao!

Listening to "Marry You" by Bruno Mars

Images by Me

22.01.12

2012-01-22T21:27:00.003-05:00

I was going to blog but blogger wasn’t working so this is typed in word document and we’ll see when it’s gonna go back up. I think this is the first time blogger hasn’t worked for me, so I forgive them xP. Anyhow, what I was going blog about was, I never knew Cineplex charges different rates for movies based on location!! I didn’t really look into the why part, but apparently Sheppard charges $12.99, Eglinton charges $10.99 and the one in Guelph only charges $10.50.

To be honest, I feel kinda ripped off cause I thought they were all the same cause they are CINEPLEX and I’ve always been to the one at Sheppard. But yea, I have this scene card from Scotiabank and so far I’ve collected enough points to watch 2 movies! That’s 2000 points! It’s $5 per point but I obviously haven’t really been spending $10000 on my debit card. But what I do is I buy at places that give me extra points and stuff, that’s how I get all the points so fast! But yea, I got a credit card, so I’ll be using that from now one once I go back to Toronto and get it. I think the credit card has a rebate system so I get more money back.

Also, I’m getting a new phone. Actually my parents already collected it for me, it’s just that I haven’t been home. With my new phone plan, I get unlimited texting ANYWHERE in the world. Unfortunately it hasn’t started, so I haven’t been texting people all around the world. But to all my darlings in Malaysia, you wait till my plan starts and then I’m gonna treat my phone like it’s msn cause I know some of u can text me back unlimited too! WOOHOO!

I only chose my new phone over the internet but I have a feeling it’s gonna be a lot better than my current one. I didn’t get a smart phone or anything. I know we’re in the 21st century but I like to limit my internet use to just on the computer, I think that has been a very good decision thus far.

OH Happy Chinese/Lunar New Year! =) Hehehe it’s my favourite celebration of all time. All the food and the money (obviously I’m only going to get money so long as I’m not married and not rich – if not I’ll feel bad). But yea, DRAGON YEAR! But according to my Chinese age, I’m like freaking 20 now. Thank goodness we follow western age calculation, and I’m only turning 19 this year. OMG I’M TURNING 19 this year. Unbelievable right? I’m like 2 decades old.

Yea that’s it for now. I’m gonna save this post and wait for blogger to be back up and then post this post! Buh-bye! =)

*Turns out it wasn't even blogger, it was just UoG internet being ridiculous. Miaos. In case you were wondering about the colour scheme, that's Owen's idea, that's why it's so emo. Oh miaos! x) Bye!

Listening to "Safe & Sound" by Taylor Swift & The Civil Wars

21.01.12

2012-01-21T00:27:00.000-05:00

Despite this being my 5th year and counting in Canada, I still use a lot of terminology not used by Canadians. Eg football instead of soccer, lorry instead of truck, sms instead of texting, torchlight instead of flashlight, petrol instead of gas, lift instead of elevator bloody __ etc. The list is so long. I don't know why, I think it's hard for me to change because these words are English and I don't think of them as something that Canadians don't say.

Anyhow, so you know the other day (Tuesday), me, Regan, Mel, Stacey, & Rach had a peanut butter night! So here are some pictures:

Peanut butter cookie batter!

Mug cake batter:

Really fun night,

aside from the peanut butter crash later on in the evening!

Listening to "Numb (Encore) (Remix)" by Linkin Park, Jay-Z, Eminem, Dr. Dre, & 50 Cent

Images by Me

17.01.12

2012-01-17T19:16:00.001-05:00

So, today I printed off the company logos for Keep Fighting Keep Smiling. Hehe, they actually turned out better than I thought too ;) And too way more time to complete than I thought, but hey it's done and good, so let's move that out of the way.

I'm going to change my official list of housemates. Regan won't be living with us =/ but I suppose on the plus side we've got our house for next year officially! And it's a really REALLY nice place =) So that's nice! And because Regan wont be living with us, there's this girl named Shannon (Aleena's current floormate I believe) that will be living with us!

Then there was the lazy moment in class when the prof asked if anyone knows what the Grand Tour is and I was like, I'm just gonna leave my hand down and stare at the ceiling. Rather naturally if you were wondering. I kinda felt bad cause no one eventually put up their hand. Either everyone else really don't know what it is or they were just like me.

Ooo we, (me, Regan, Stacy, Melanie & Rachel) are having a baking party today. When I booked the kitchen today and this one section where it asked why I wrote down "Baking cookies!" which they subsequently sent me an email entitled "Baking Cookies: (my name here)". But yes can't wait! We're making peanut butter cookies and mug cakes as in cakes in a mug or cup but I can't really say cup cakes now can I.

Also, I should probably start working on university. If I keep slacking like this I don't even know how that will adversely affect my mark.

Listening to " Best Thing I Never Had" by Beyonce

16.01.12

2012-01-16T00:40:00.000-05:00

Mi. Freaking. Graine.

FML, note to head, you didn't do THAT much today to get a migraine. Stop it, dont be so precious. PFT. Ouch. Went house hunting today and we more or less figured what we want but I'm still just a bit not sure. But yea, so my housemates for next year will officially be Regan, Melanie, Stacy, & Aleena. LOL I seriously can't wait, I don't know why but I'm just so excited! =P

Ooo Nicole just got into a relationship. High five gurl. If you're wondering, of course I'm jealous. They look so cute together, while I'm here juggling a long distance ... (Owen, I love you, but if you see their pictures, you'd be jealous too) I always knew her "time" would come around soon enough and guess I was right. Now I'm wondering who's next. O_O

I've also been playing Sims! But just decorating /designing my house. It's annoying how I can't put everything I have in mind cause it's a freaking game and it doesn't have everything. Also, because I'm lazy, I only have one floor instead of 2, like how my idea of a house is. Now that I'm halfway through designing my place, I will also tell you that I will NEVER have a one story building for myself in future. I just can't get pass the idea that a bedroom is on the same floor as the kitchen. I know. I know.

Anyhows, that's it for now. Toodles

Listening to "Lego House" by Ed Sheeran

15.01.12

2012-01-15T22:59:00.003-05:00

A month ago I was too busy to blog
A month after that, I am too empty to blog.

Listening to "Stronger (What Doesn't Kill you)" by Kelly Clarkson

13.01.12

2012-01-13T16:53:00.003-05:00

Friday the 13th!

I hope your day has been left un-jinxed,

I know mine has.

Thus far, that is.

Sometimes I read a log of people's blogs, ones that have been blogging for years and sometimes they lose their passion or their intial spark to blog. I simply wonder if I'll ever reach that stage of over-writing my ideas. Maybe, maybe not.

ANYHOWS, it's been such a cold day today, I hope you all are nice and warm. I've done quite a bit all morning and afternoon, but I've still got a few things that I REALLY need to finish soon but haven't. So here's basically just a quick hello.

On behalf of the HTMSA (Hospitality & Tourism Management Student Association) I just wanted to update everyone about Our Drew's. If you haven't heard, it's a fundraiser event for Drew and you can read all about it here. Dinner tickets have been sold out but there are still 40 reception tickets left going on for $30 (all of which will be donated to Drew). Also, we've actually reached our $10,000 fundraising goal and thank you so much, and we've decided to increase that goal to $15,000 to help Drew just a tiny bit more. So if you have anything to help, once again go here. Keep Fighting. Keep Smiling. =)

Miaos. Ciaos.

Listening to "Skinny Love" by Birdy (cover)

12.01.12

2012-01-12T14:45:00.005-05:00

I know the University of Guelph has an amazing reputation for their food. I'm not gonna deny it, UoG has great pastas, pizzas, roast beef (mmmm) but when it comes to Asian food in here, I haven't tasted anything good that is Asian.

See I've been working all morning, so I went out for lunch at Creelman with Regan and we decided to order the new Pho bowls. And I was like Phở mmm. So I went to the Pho place, and the lady asked me if I want any meat on it and I was like what type and she was like chicken, beef, if you vegetarian, tofu. And I was beef hands down, this is Pho. So I had beef, with my noodles, and my bean sprouts and I cheated cause I put in baby corn even though that's totally what you shouldn't put in. And then I sprinkled spring onions and basil and put the soup over it.

And it tasted so freaking bad. It was unbelievable, the noodles were left out too long that they became hard. The beef was flavoured in some taste that doesn't even taste like Pho, it was almost like roast beef chunks, the soup was bland and they stored it in this soup thing but it's like not warm enough cause the noodle and the veges were cold. So by the time u put the soup in the noodle, the soup is luke warm. Luke warm Pho. Can you imagine LUKE WARM PHO. EEW. I know.

I tried but I couldn't finish it and I felt so horrible. Cause I don't like wasting food, and I was still hungry, but if I had another bite of that hard ass noodle, I was going to puke. I was so sad too. I'm eating corn flakes right now cause I'm still hungry.

If you think that's the worse meal I've had in Guelph, I actually don't know. Cause the chickpea curry I had at the Bullring I don't know if that was like equally bad, worse, or slightly better, I can't decide cause it was disgusting too.

Sushi and maki rolls would be UoG's 3rd most disgusting Asian meal u can get. 4th has gotta be Creelman's Nasi Goreng. Aka Malay fried rice, aka the thing I can get for like $1 Canadian that taste like heaven. That tasted so bad I wanted to cry. I was like I'm Malaysian gurl, you can't feed me stuff from my own country that you cooked with totally WRONG ingredients, that is just mean.

Teppanyaki Express would be 5th. When I get desperate I can still like consume it, but this one time. This lady she was like do you want hot sauce, and I was like sure. So she took the bottle hot sauce and just squeezed a whole load of chilli sauce out. Guess what, it tasted like freaking chilli soup. It was those commercial chilli sauces too where they are like overly sour. So it was more like BAD freaking chilli soup.

I need to stop trying Asian food in this campus cause they just make me sad. Do not even get me started on the Chinese or Thai food, do not. I will cry. I'm actually glad that I don't know a single korean place in this city, so nobody can ruin korean food for me here. I will TRY to control my Asian food cravings here in Guelph.

Listening to "What Makes You Beautiful" by Ray Mak (Piano Cover)

10.01.12

2012-01-10T15:22:00.004-05:00

I haven't had any classes today,

but it has already been a pretty exciting day.

Going back in time to yesterday, attending my PSYC 1200 class! Dynamics of Behaviour, and based on yesterday's briefing, the course is as though it was custom made for me, so I really can't wait! >_<

Today I have yet to have gone to my only class! What I did though was go out to the mall to get something. However what I thought was The Bay was actually Sears... =_=. Dang, why do I always do this in Guelph. Everything here looks so close, but it's actually so far away. I think it's because there are no high rises, so I can see buildings even though they are really far away and I think that they are close. =/

Anyhow I also went to LCBO cause Scotiabank was too hard to get to by foot. I was trying to do a cashback with my debit card, but I have to buy something, which is fair, but I'm not 19, so obviously I can't buy anything at the LCBO. So I ended up buying this lousy little wine bag but I think I'll keep it. After all, I'm not that far away from actually being able to buy alcohol. Although I have the feeling the person thought I am much younger than I actually am. Doesn't matter, I appreciate the compliment.

Also, on the way back from the bus loop to my room, I went to the UC (University Centre) and I think I did something today that I'm going to be proud of for the the rest of my life. Not like crazy proud and boasting and like cheering proud, but you know, just something I'll always appreciate about myself. I'm gonna give myself a pat in the back for that.

I also watch a lot of youtube videos, wrote out a few more job applications (havent submitted), going to have to work on scholarships soon too. That's it for now, Ciaos darlings.

Listening to "Sparks" by Coldplay

09.01.12

2012-01-09T14:16:00.002-05:00

For the love of Miaos.

I don't normally do blog titles, but there you go. Came back to Guelph again yesterday. It didn't feel real walking through campus but at the same time there was a familiar feeling that I'll know I'll come to miss one day.

So far I've had math and economics class today. Having another class later today and I would be in a seminar just about now but seminars haven't started so here I am in my room. Just completed this sudoku puzzle that I took longer than expected to complete. It wasn't even challenging, I just kept looking at it wrong.

But yes, there are things I should be focusing on eh? Buying a textbook would be a good start. Organizing my binders for class would be a great way to continue... so on. But still, the holiday mood is still within me and waking up at 7:30 to get ready for an 8:30 class did nothing to change the mood. But I'm letting myself go for now, after all I'll be busy again rather soon and by then there wont be any real breaks until the end of the year.

Geez, I had something interesting to blog about but I forgot, so I'm just gonna end with this CUTESIE picture that describes me completely:

Listening to "Super Bass" by Nicki Minaj
Image from facebook.com

06.01.12

2012-01-06T13:47:00.007-05:00

What life until 2011 taught me...

1. Private outdoor pools are a big no-no.

Over the summer, my family found two drowned rats in our freaking pool. We also almost had two drowned chipmunks, but one manage to save itself and the other baby chipmunk was very luckily saved by my dad. Of course when my dad said he saved a baby chipmunk, my thoughts were something more like a. did you take a picture or b. are we gonna keep it? Neither holds true.
Solution: In-door pool or public pools

2. Don't be stereotypical.

How many times have you heard girls are bla bla bla, guys are bla bla bla; blacks are this, whites are that. And my personal "favourite": God hates homosexuals. People, stop being so stereotypical. You don't know where they came from and where they'll end up. Do you like it if someone associated you with a bad stereotype, and as far as I'm concerned most stereotypes are bad.
Solution: Next time you think of something stereotypical, think why YOU feel you have to bash someone else then solve that reason.

3. Don't be arrogant.

If you think you're a genius, you'll never learn. And thing is, I know it can be hard when someone says something about you and you may not like it and the natural reaction could be to be defensive. That's understandable. And maybe you do get really defensive, but never forget to always learn from what other people have to say about you. They could be wrong, but it doesn't change the fact that maybe if you did something differently, you would not offend people.
Solution: Be humble; don't try to please everyone, but be the best you can be

4. Communication is key.

The second you post an issue you're having with someone on facebook, the issue just got 1000x worse. What you should've done is talk to the person first. And if you feel that that person is being a stubborn as hell fuck, then that's the point where facebook could be a good resort to try to inflict fear to get that person to stop whatever shit they are doing. But generally, most people with adequate communication skills will not have to get to that stage because there will be so much drama by then.
Solution: Communicate first, bitch later.

These are more like life lessons. The ultimate moral of the story from everything I wrote above is, try to see the beauty in everything and life just gets so much easier. And I can tell you that because for one small moment in my life I was so angry with so many things. Some people would know when that time of my life is and it really wasn't that long ago. It took me what seemed like a very LONG few months but I slowly controlled my anger and finally it was just gone. It's really hard to let go because you've built so much ego to support that anger (and that's how you get angrier and angrier and angrier), but it's worth it.

Thank you for reading this long ass post, this post is really for me to be honest. Things I have done and should remember and things I haven't done so well and should keep doing better. So yea, ciaos. See you in a bit for a much lighter "normal" post.

Listening to "0330" by Ray Mak (Piano Cover)

05.01.12

2012-01-05T22:10:00.001-05:00

Happy 7th month ♥

Hehehe, I still can't believe it's 2012. It means that 4 months from now I'll be technically a 2nd year university student. I really need to get my summer planned out soon.

OH and today, I was typing in my password for something and it kept telling me "wrong password bla bla bla" and you know that feeling when you KNOW that you KNOW your own password and you're thinking what the heck is wrong with this and then I saw that my caps button was on. *sigh* Trolled by a caps lock button.

Miao short post.

Byes

Listening.. still to nothing .. unless my dishwasher counts.

03.01.12

2012-01-03T19:34:00.002-05:00

New Year, NEW Haircut!!

OMG I didn't realize I asked for it to be this much shorter!! It's like about 4 inches shorter but, there does all my unhealthy ends! Hehe, wonder how it'll really look like after I wash and just naturally leave it to dry. I wonder what Owen & Carrie will say about the length >_<. To be honest, I chatted with Owen for over an hour, and I totally forgot to tell him I got a haircut.... Oops.

Anyhow, everyone has like New Year Resolutions for 2012... I wouldn't really say my 2012 resolution would be very interesting.

Get G2
Get a summer job / summer courses
Mission 0506
Eat well while in residence
Get a part-time job during 2nd year
Work on curbing nerves during interviews
Study. Like the world will never end.
Miao like a cat

LOL, the last one has got to be my favourite new year resolution. Yes, only 8. Keeping it simple (for the most part), and 8 is every Chinese person's favourite number, not exactly my favourite number though, don't really have a preference actually. It's just a number, EXCEPT during exams. During exams, my favourite number is 100.

Did I mention it's FREEZING today. Yea, I kinda did yesterday, but -14 to be exact when I was out. Not only is it freezing, the weather is doing shit to my skin. See above picture of alleged haircut. Miaos. >_< I know right. It was nicer during exams, wth. =_=. EMO.

Anyhow. Miaos. Ciaos.

Listening to ... Haven't really listened to any music lately

Image by Me

02.01.12

2012-01-02T23:29:00.002-05:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR SEXAYS! ♥

Let's see how I started 2012. Woke up... prepared an English breakfast for me family. Perfectly cooked bacon by yours truly ;) I should probably give EpicMealTime credit for all the scenes of "bacon flips" in their videos. Then had a steamboat lunch and dinner. Although steamboat would be an over statement.. cause we don't have the steamboat pot.. just normal pots.. so we boiled the pot on the stove first, then took the whole stove out to our dinner table.

Also, parents' laptop got infected by a virus. My sister tried, but failed. Although to be fair, she didn't try very long. Then came YOURS TRULY (again, I know), entered a few codes thanks to online guides and solved everything! And thanks to that, me & my sis each got $20 from daddy =P

That was my 1st day of 2012. Today I must say is a lot more boring. Basically just ate ate ate, sent sister off cause McMaster starts on the 3rd...? Basically this week. While I still have until next week. GUELPH FTW! hehe. Actually all universities except McMaster & Waterloo FTW! Well I suppose that includes every other university out there in Canada that starts schooling again this week.

So miaos. Gonna get a New Year haircut tomorrow when it's -12 outside. Apparently the city issued a severe weather warning.. warning. And ha, I'm going out to fight death while getting a new haircut! Wish me luck. Tried to postpone it but it was closed today =_=. RAWRRR

Anyhow, that's it. Ciao babes. Have a super super sexay 2012 ahead.

Listening to "Set Fire to the Rain" by Adele

31.12.11

2011-12-31T00:35:00.000-05:00

Let's talk about 2011 in a single post eh.

Or so we try.

So much has happened this year, so many things that I can help but feel relatively proud or at least satisfied with. Really, I started this year with relatively low expectations, but things really took off, and I must admit, I'm really happy.

Let's begin from the beginning of 2011, I made a New Year Resolution. Some of the resolutions were subjective, so there isn't a definite answer, but for the most part, I feel that I've completed most of it. Getting my G1 especially, or something more like FINALLY.

In grade 12, I was living with Carrie. I still can't thank you and your family enough for inviting me little monster into your cozy home. Then I moved back home, and back out again in two months in a completely new city called Guelph to begin university. Now I must thank Regan, Stacy, Melanie, Rachel and of course many other people who have made my university experience such a joy so far.

Then let's not ever forget Prom. We all know prom on its own is relatively boring. But it was the amazing ability for me to spend with my friends, plus a super fun sleepover, and not to mention a new sexay man to take home with me. xP

In fact, being in a Relationship was the last thing I had in mind, especially when I knew I was going to leave Toronto. But you know what, no regrets, we're heading towards our 7th month. Goodness, how time flew.

Then there were happy achievements for me such as getting a 98% on my law exam, getting on to the HTMSA, getting into Schulich (although I eventually rejected), and then some seemingly less significant but still very rewarding achievements. Also, many life lessons, ones that I will continue to learn from and improve.

I have made a lot of new friends this year, but even better, I still have my amazing "old" friends to share new experiences with. The list goes on and on: school lunches, March Break buffets, birthdays (Anita's especially), Commencement, Prom (again), Pool Party I, Pool Party II, Birthday Lunch, Christmas Party, Skating... etc etc etc.

Of course I also had a really fun time with a lot of other people during the year, but hey, all you have to do is read everything I've blogged so far. This year I actually wrote a lot of multiple blogs... Graduation, New York, Photo Series II, & Prom again. LOL Miaos. =P Oh, and started a Book Blog!!

But really, in the end of the day, all I really wanna say is, one year from now I wish I'd still be alive and the "2012 World is Ending shit" is not true. Cause I'm way to satisfied and I want to do way too many things to have the world give up on me, or all of us I suppose. Thank you everyone, not forgetting my sexay readers, for going through this sexay year with me. Cheers to 2011.

♥ ♥ ♥

Listening to "The Truth That You Leave (Piano Instrumental)" by Pianoboy
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28.12.11

2011-12-28T22:27:00.002-05:00

Went out yet again today!

This time I went with Samantha, Qiqi, Vivian, Vitak, & Carrie to the Natrel Rink right by Harbourfront. We left North York at like... 12 plus, headed all the way to union, "surfed" the TTC, got skates, and skated. Well at least, everyone but me, cause I was too lazy to skate.

It was SO cold today. It said -6, but it's suppose to feel like -18 according to Vivian, and HELL it was -18 alright. We were FREEZING. About 2 hours later, me Samantha & Carrie each got a footlong at Subway, while Qiqi Vivian & Vitak went to Starbucks to get coffee. And finally after a long time of warming up indoors, we went out again. Skated for a while more, and finally decided to call it a day cause it got way too cold. So, we went to Harbourfront Centre, me got coffee, we "toured" Sobeys, then we skipped coins by the fountain! Mind you, all the coins will be donated to some Autism association. Don't forget Qiqi's amazing coin skipping skills, and then me & Samantha's horrible coin dropping skills.

Finally, we hoped back onto the TTC and headed home.

That's it for now, short post for a really long, fun & cold day.

Check out all the photos from today on facebook

Listening to "Cosmic Love" by Florence + The Machine

27.12.11

2011-12-27T23:43:00.000-05:00

It is ALMOST the end of the year!

OMG It's so unreal!

It is actually like 12:23am now. Just got home ish, did a few things, showered, did a few things more, here. What a LONG day. Met up with Amelio, Carrie, & Joanna at 12 today at North York. However due to a case of miscommunication + Samantha waking up late, but really just miscommunication, we ended up only seeing each other at 12:30.. lol, fail.

So yea, we headed to Yorkdale Mall. And now that I think about it, everybody got something except for me. In my defense, the one top I REALLY liked did not come in my size, and then the other top I tried, it was PERFECT except for the collar part was overly wide. And I tried like doing a single shoulder look & what not but they all looked weird, so I didn't get that.

Didn't really spot any good shoes. My parents on the other hand actually did a great job shopping. In fact, they actually spotted a really nice shoe. OMG IT'S SO PRETTY. I had to google it! It's THIS:

My mom went to Escada, so this pretty ass shoe and she knew it was just my type. It was originally priced at $975, then after a series of discounts it became $320.. something like that. Still expensive I know, & my parents know it's not healthy to feed my shoe addiction, so they didn't buy it. Wise choice on their part, but still, O.M.F.G.

My dad got himself 6 new tops. Mostly winter wear, sweaters, and what not. He seemed really satisfied. Esp if you know my dad, he's rarely satisfied when shopping, afterall he doesn't really like it. It's also nice to see him actually spend money on something for himself rather than for us.

Also had a so-called dinner date with me boyfriend. Haha with Pizza Hut pizza. But still =) Oh, did I mention snow? & My sis is in Montreal as of today to Friday. & Skating event tomorrow! WEEEEE although I don't have skates, and me being a stubborn idiot who came from a tropical country, does not include skates in her shopping list for the time being.

Miaos. That it, me go play game & sleep

night night sexays

Listening to "Dear No One" by Tori Kelly
Image from escada.com

26.12.11

2011-12-26T23:02:00.000-05:00

Ho. Ho. Ho.
Merry Christmas darlings
& Happy Boxing Day!!!

Going shopping again tomorrow with my sexay girlfriends, but as for today! Me & me family went downtown and shopped around. We didn't get much, but I suppose, we don't really need much. Canadian shopping afterall, is one I wouldn't reckon if I had an international shopping pass.

Miao. Also, we were actually gonna stay home on Sunday. You see, we were going to cook a steak dinner, and we WERE going to buy our ingredients on Saturday. But it was Christmas Eve, & all grocery stores closed at 6pm, at least all the white ones, so we couldn't get steak.

Yea I got some Nioxin Scalp Treatment shampoo thingy to combat my so-called "hair loss". And the dude was like, the set only helps with ur hair externally, but internally, he asked, are you stressed from studies, and I was thinking "HELL YEA", and I said yes, and he said you need to work on that on your own, and I was just thinking to myself, my stress is never going to go away. I'm 18, I've wasted half my working life doing more or less nothing.

But yea, that's my life in a jiff.
Ttyl loves, maybe I'll blog tomorrow

Listening to "Heartbeat" by The Fray

22.12.11 + 23.12.11 Christmas Party

2011-12-23T11:54:00.000-05:00

OMG So cute!

I was just reading last years blog post about our Christmas party, and I realize we had it on the exact same day! The 22nd! =)

This years party is actually very different from last years. Even though last years party was so much planning, this years was actually harder to plan, cause EVERY single form of communication was through email. I remember last year, we would all gather up during lunch and make all the big crazy decisions together. But I suppose this years party is also the proof that even though we now all live apart, we can still meet up for sure, at least once, for a Christmas Party.

I actually woke up early, but I eventually left my house late cause I couldn't find my socks! Brought my whole bag of gifts out & headed to the TTC. Lucky it's the festive season, if not I'll look so weird xP As soon as I got to North York (our meeting spot), I gave Samantha, Anita, Carrie, & Joanna their gifts. Haha I'm so glad Joanna likes her shoes, in fact she put it on almost immediately.

I still feel so bad I couldn't get something for everyone. Maybe I'll just do that next year? We see. On the topic of gifts, I got a whole box of cookies from Joanna, chocolate covered fruits from Carrie Sarah & Amelia, and a cute candy cane from Joannee.

So we met up and what seemed like a long while after, we finally left for our destination. We = Joanna, Vivian, Sarah, Vitak, Qiqi, Joannee, Samantha, Nicole, Noel, Anita, Carrie, Amelia and me.

Basically we went to this place called Snake and Lattes for lunch and a ton of boardgames. But really for lunch, me and Joanna had to be monkeys and we actually ate in my favourite Canadian korean restaurant just like right across the road.

The cutest game was the monopoly Pokemon version. We didn't play long enough to have anyone bankrupt though. Then, probably the game we spent playing most was Jenga. =_=, freak I suck at that game. But this was just the group sitting on the big table. Vitak, Qiqi, Joannee and Amelia were sitting on the smaller table playing something else. So yea you gotta ask them for their details =P

Then after a LONG time of playing a lot of games, the few of us just went to this place called Honest Eds where they sell a LOT of stuff for super cheap. I suppose it's like a mega Dollarstore, but prices vary.

Then finally dinner. Deciding how to get to dinner took more time than actually getting to dinner. Esp Carrie: We havde 15 minutes left! See, we initially booked for 5pm, then we change to 6pm, but we eventually reach our destination at 5pm. =_=. So what we did was, walk into Shoppers, Metro, & Dollarstore, really just to talk, talk, and talk some more.

Finally, dinner time. I was STARVING. Which is good, cause once again for the something like the millionth time, we're eating Japanese buffet again! But it's our first time eating Jap buffet dinner together as a group! Hahha my side (me, Sarah, Samantha, Anita, Joanna, Carrie) were the loud side. LOLL Ordered like crazy people, even though as usual, I was fine. =P Samantha: If I see another ball of rice..."; Joanna: the rice spitter; Me: the bottomless pit =_=.

My side ordered something like 52 slices of sashimi, guess who ate almost all the surf clam slices. Teehee. AND that last tempura. And two ice creams. But not that bowl of seaweed salad.. too much and too soggy. Of course, and more. xP (I was still hungry)

Finally the bill came bout, we all paid cash to get a 10% discount. To end up playing $264 for all 11 of us. Miao, do the math. In hard cash too. On one single plastic bill thingy. That's going to be all I'm gonna blog about. Can't wait for next years party! xP

All my pictures including gifts & all will be on facebook.

Listening to "Domino" by Jessie J.

21.12.11

2011-12-21T17:14:00.004-05:00

I've been a bad blogger I know!

I was going to blog.. like everyday after my last exam but I didn't. So now, I'm sitting in my family room, drinking some barley. I cooked it up with no sugar and I actually really like it, my mom though still prefers it with sugar. Anyhow, Christmas party tomorrow with my girlfriends! ♥ I seriously can't wait!! =) Oh must remind self to charge camera later!!

I've been playing Sims 3 & Spiral Knights ever since I got back and I'm getting so bored. Which is a good thing, cause I actually have more important things to do than play games. The list includes reading a few books my sis got from Shanghai like 2 years ago. So I gotta do that.

Submit a few job offers & apply for a few scholarships. And to all my Malaysian lovelites... (o_O), I don't think I'll be coming home until at least 2015. See next summer 2012, I really REALLY wanna work. Then summer 2013 - 2014 I have co-op, so I can't come back. So... yea. It's a bit depressing, but I gotta do what I've gotta do. What my mom was saying is that, maybe instead of the summer, we'll just head home during the winter break.

But STILL SAD RIGHT. OMG. No Nasi Lemak since 2010. >_< *sob sob sob* But we see how it goes right. Even Justin Bieber also know how to say "NEVER SAY NEVER".

Miao that's it for now. Gotta PREPARE! for tomorrow's party!
See you all soon

Listening to "Oh Yeah" by GD, Top & Park Bom

12.12.11

2011-12-12T22:46:00.005-05:00

Never stop believing

for it will carve the path in which you will take.

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The above video is NOT for the faint heated. Don't worry, even I just listened to the narrator for most of the video. Anyhow, funny how my PhotoSeries "poetry" inspiration comes back to me AFTER I'm done the series.

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3 exams down so I'm going to take a super quick break to blog. I realized yesterday that my Sims 3 characters were ALL GONE. I was playing Sims in the summer, & I left it till yesterday, & even so I was just briefly checking cause I was planning to just finish decorating my house and more or less call it quits. Then I realize, everything is GONE. OMFG. So I dunno if I should start again, or... o_O I'm probably gonna start again cause I really wanted to build a nice home.

Still annoyed though. All my hard work & money all gone. I think I had like over 100,000$ or something... =_=. Speaking of exams, I've been mentally too relaxed. See I thought I was going to get a low grade and panicked, then started calculating my marks and I was like pft.. puh-lease. But even though I don't feel stressed, my body is physically telling me I'm bloody stressed, so I'm still like wtf? But yea, that's it for now. Time for economics! I'll give my final the supply of knowledge. HA. Jokes.

Listening to "Ours" by Taylor Swift

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07.12.11

2011-12-07T20:50:00.000-05:00

Finally done with my PhotoSeries 2, I know it's not as good as last years, but hey welcome back to regular posting. I miss it and I hope you do to. So, LADIES

I know most of my readers are female and my age, which is considered young. But if you happen to be a more mature lady or when you grow old, please remember this:

People need to dress their age. For example, if you're 40, one thing you shouldn't do is put enough makeup that makes you look like you're 20. That's just freaky. I grew up watching Disney, all the female villains more or less had some aging issue. Repeat: Look. Your. Age.

Then there's the topic of acting cute and yes there is a difference between acting cute and actually being cute. You know those girls who act cute WHEREVER and WHENEVER? I don't get it, I'm straight & oddly so are you, so why are you trying to act cute in front of me? I ain't gonna be attracted and u know that.

Obviously this only applies if the girl is straight. If the girl who is looking cute in front of me happens to be lesbian then I wont be pissed unless you're acting cute in front of guys too, then shame on you, get your sexuality sorted out missy. Conversely, if you're bisexual and you're thinking does that mean I can act cute in front of everyone? The answer is NO unless you're a cheap whore.

Some people need to seriously wake up. Come on, we're not actresses of Gossip Girls or 90210. I hate to break it out this way but stop it. On the final topic of "ladies". Do not drink like a cheap whore just to look cool if you can't handle alcohol, unless you want to be raped as well. Welcome to real life, 1 in 5 Canadian women WILL be sexually assaulted, you might as well be sober so you can kick some bastard off you than be a drunk idiot. Seriously.

*exhale*

Ciao babes. I know you miss the long posts!

If you're the above, take notes

If you're not, well spread the word.

Listening to "Everybody Hurts" by Avril Lavigne

06.12.11

2011-12-06T15:35:00.000-05:00

You know that feeling

when you stand on an empty deserted road

Waiting for an answer

that you can't find doing nothing.

The end of what is suppose to be a November only blog series, or shall I say Movember. Dedicating this last post to raising awareness about prostate cancer, may it be a thing of the past.

Listening to "Collide" by Leona Lewis & Avicii

05.12.11

2011-12-05T00:31:00.000-05:00

Happy happy half year anniversary!

♥ Love you darling

I know this picture is not mine

but it is a special picture he used to trick me

in the beginning of our relationship xP

Miao. hehehe

I still love you. =)

Listening to "镜夜" by V.K 克
Image by dailydoseofcute.net

Co-written with Mr. Yeh ♥

02.12.11

2011-12-02T15:35:00.001-05:00

I suck at job interviews
Often, I come back thinking about the things I should've said
Not to sound better or anything,
but those are the things I would really have said if I wasn't in an interview
I need more interviews to practise my interview skills =_=

Listening to "Criminal" by Britney Spears
Image by Me

01.12.11

2011-12-01T12:35:00.000-05:00

First day of DECEMBER!

& this day will never be the same for me

Happy Birthday my darling Owen

Love you, & sorry I can't be there

But stay warm with that new hoodie of yours =)

Listening to "Wish You Were Here" by Avril Lavigne

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30.11.11

2011-11-30T22:35:00.000-05:00

Last day of November
but not last days of PhotoSeris due to NYC posts.
Behold today's Secret Santa party...

My gift for Willie:

(Sharpies + Travel Mug)

My gifts from Regan:

(Photo frame + Cute fuzzy winter socks + Hair ties)

I do not need any new hair ties for a long time

Merry (early) Christmas!

Listening to "Love Is Ouch" by 2NE1

Images by Me

29.11.11

2011-11-29T15:35:00.000-05:00

Aim to be Timeless.

Listening to "Sparks Fly" by Taylor Swift

Image by Me

28.11.11

2011-11-28T15:35:00.000-05:00

The saturn moons they shine so bright

Listen close the time has come

For those once wrong, will be right

Blessed silence it shall become.

Listening to "Just A Dream" by Nelly

Image by Me

25.11.11

2011-11-25T23:15:00.001-05:00

It's 11:16pm.

& I'm not supposed to be here.I literally missed the bus by 2 minutes because I couldn't find anyone. And then I went back to my room to get my phone cause I left it behind. Then I took the wrong bus, to realize in the midst of getting my phone I stupidly left my keys behind.The wrong bus took me on a half an hour ride around this town, & finally when I walked back to my room to get my keys so that I can take the bus to downtown. I was reminded I can't go in cause I'm under-aged and I don't have a fake ID.

I'm just really sad right now. I actually had it all planned out in my head. I borrowed Melanie's dress (cause I forgot the event was THIS week), I borrowed her hair-curler. And I burnt my skin so many times because I've never even used it. I mean, I've never even used a hair-straightener. I know such a noob. And then I just messed it all up. And now I'm just showering my face with my own makeup, how pathetic.

It was suppose to be a happy day.

Listening to ... emptyness

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24.11.11

2011-11-24T12:35:00.000-05:00

Yea,

It's not easy,

sometimes I get too busy to remember that it's not easy

I don't know how I'm suppose to do this

for a really long time too

You're probably thinking the same

I know the beauty is probably in the fact we don't know

and that we won't just give up.

AND it will be worth it no matter what happens.

but I still wish it would be a little easier.

I don't have a picture today... just thoughts.

Listening to "Pumped Up Kicks" by Alyssa Bernal, Diego Navaira, & Shane Gamboa (cover)

Image by Me

23.11.11

2011-11-23T15:35:00.000-05:00

Sometimes, I wake up

look at myself

and wonder how the heck I got this far

I read through my past and relive the pain

to realize that I got through it all.

Of course it's only just the beginning

but my life now is so beautiful,

it was before too, but now I see it clearer.

Listening to "You Make Me Feel..." by Cobra Starship & Sabi
Image by Me

22.11.11

2011-11-22T15:35:00.000-05:00

There's a difference between being blunt & being rude

Yes, even I've done my bad share of mixing them two together

One is inevitable,

& the other is downright despicable.

Listening to "Earthquake" by Labrinth & Tinie Tempah
Image by Me

21.11.11

2011-11-21T15:35:00.000-05:00

Life is funny.

People Change.

For better or for worse (we all know that)

I'll either grow to be the person you no longer admire

or you'll grow to be the person to longer look up to me.

Listening to "Lonely" by 2NE1
Images by Me

18.11.11

2011-11-18T15:35:00.000-05:00

Guelph Squirrels,

Braver than you.

Listening to "The One That Got Away" by Katy Perry
Image by Me

NYC 2011 Trip (4)

2011-11-17T16:40:00.001-05:00

OMG SNOW! T_T

Ok it's not that bad, but time to take my winter jacket out. Right? Anyway.... Oliver & Bonacini job interview today. I thought it went well even though I forgot mention one VERY important reason why I wanna join the restaurant, & it's not even like a prettied up reason. Oh miaos, we see how it goes, stay positive! MIAO! So, back to New York! The 4th & final post...

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Pretty much today is just a what I bought in New York post...

My very first purchase was...

Ok I can't tell anyone what it is yet because I haven't given these away & I can't tell you the names or items either. You just have to wait for it, probably around christmas for me to reveal them. Some maybe before or after. But the point is, they will all be in December. *there is more to this post than just gifts. second purchase was...

third purchase was...

fourth purchase was....

HAHA finally something for myself! Woot Woot

Been needing foundation for a while now

5th purchase was...

6th purchase was...

7th purchase was..

OMG this shoe is so. SO. SEXAY

LOL USD $40. Miao, totally my style.

Teehee

8th purchase was...

For someonee in my family... even though the person that likes chocolates most in my family is me, but hey, it's the thought that counts right. OOO also, here is my hostel key card & 7-day unlimited metro plus

& LOOK NYC water bottle!

Slowly but surely you'll find out all the gifts
but for now. That's NYC in 4 blogs
back to my PhotoSeries 2 tomorrow!

Listening to ""Just A Kiss" by Lady Antebellum

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NYC 2011 Trip (3)

2011-11-16T20:30:00.001-05:00

Finally, my LAST (unfortunately) day in New York...

Our plan today. Central Park! OMG such a lovely place. It's so hard to believe that a HUGE city like New York would have a HUGE park like this.

SOOO pretty. And look, a fountain! So proud of my camera and it's ability to have this settings to produce this sexay picture:

Teehee. We also got on a horse carriage.

AND my first time feeding a horsey! With a carrot. Kinda scary cause his mouth was all slimey and his saliva was like white =_=. EW. But still, cute horsey. Then we head to Tiffany's cause Steph needed to get her sister this necklace. But guess what I saw:

I GOT IT! Kidding. I wish. It's still like super big/expensive diamond on display. I'm waiting for someone to get it for me.. *wink wink nudge nudge* (semi-kidding). Then Canal street again for some final shopping, then off we went to this place called Katz Deli

Apparently they have some of the BEST sandwiches like ever, and guess what they were right, I got this roast beef sandwich.

SO. DAMN. GOOD. Remember the AMAZING chicken I had the day before at Island Burgers? Like that was a foodgasm, but this was like 10 of them. My goodness. The beef was REALLY rare & normally I don't like super rare beef, but this was like AMAZING! OMG. OMG. OMG. I'm still drooling at the thought of it. SOOOOOOOO GOOD! It's a MUST TRY for all the peeps reading this going to New York. KATZ DELI IS YOUR MUST GO FOOD LOCATION! (If you eat meat) Steph & Diana had pastrami & even that was so good. I mean my goodness, American food sizes are HUGE ok, not only did I finish MY sandwich, but also ate a bit of Diana's pastrami cause she couldn't finish it. SO GOOD

Then back to time square for WAY more shopping. We actually met up with Reese & Connor at Katz & they shopped with us for a while but decided they should go do their own thing & so it was the 4 of us again. Basically some final shopping & some really sore feet! We had to be back by our hostel by 9, left New York, heavy heartedly.

& Canadian border inspection was stupid. I'm sorry, but that's why North America is so scared of terrorist. Let me tell you what happened. Ok I'm Malaysian, I do not have a Canadian passport & never will (cause I have to give my Malaysian passport up), & obviously I have like a PR card. I put BOTH my passport & card on their desk, & the dude just took the card. He didn't even TOUCH my passport. & he was like done, & I was like appalled so my natural reaction was (rather sarcastically) "That's it?!", and he was just like yea as though it's normal & he did not forget ANYTHING. So either they really don't check foreign passports or they REALLY forgot to check my passport. Either way, epic fail. He didn't even ask me how much I spent, he could've taxed me if I went over budget (which I actually didn't if you're wondering)

But yea, arrived at Guelph at like 7am, showered & slept. Stay tuned tomorrow for a final conclusion post on NYC

Listening to "Mr. Know It All" by Kelly Clarkson
Images by Me

NYC 2011 Trip (2)

2011-11-15T17:54:00.000-05:00

OMG There was this exhibition dinner thing going on yesterday. I got Maple mustard pork tenderloin with couscous, buttersquash & sweet potato soup, an "Asian" snap pea salad, plus this amazing chocolate mouse ish pie. PLUS I won this little baby yesterday from a candy draw.

All that food for $11.99, I had to pack some of them up.

This week is just amazing, but back New York, Day TWO.

Woke up on Saturday from the best sleep I've had in ages. The 4 of us got ready and headed over to Metropolitan Museum of Art. We walked through central park & when we finally got there, the photo spree begun, it is after all, where Gossip Girls sat.

Then we tried to visit Ground Zero, but apparently you need to reserve a spot (even though it's free). The lines & everything was too long so we simply decided to ignore it & shop by this HUGE department store called Century 21. Not exactly my favourite place to shop cause a size S was like a freaking size L =_=. No wonder American's are obese... Oh, & we had lunch in this really like small cafeteria place, but goodness was the food good for a place like that. Really unexpected, didn't get a picture though. =/

Then we went to try to visit the Statue of Liberty. But we were told that this free ferry would let us see it, when in fact it was more of a local ferry & was really far from the statue. But I suppose I've seen it before, so I wasn't really sad about it.

After a really long ferry ride to Staten Island & back, we all went back to our hostels for a rest, & Steph left us to hang out with her friends who lived in New York. So the rest of us, went back to Time Square for dinner. After asking around, we decided to go to this place called Island Burgers & Shakes. OMG I got a Blackened Churasco, basically sauteed chicken with cajun spices in a burger. So. Damn. GOOD.

OMG. I have to talk more about the chicken. It was SO numbing cause of the spices, but it wasn't like overly salty or anything. And the texture of the WHOLE thing was AMAZING. I will never look at a grilled chicken burger the same again. *drools* Foodgasm worthy.

After a lovely & amazingly satisfying dinner, the 3 of us went back to Time Square to shop at Sephora, then we headed back & that was pretty much the gist of Day 2 at New York.

Stay tuned for Day 3!

Listening to "Give Me Everything" by Pitbull, Ne-Yo, Afrojack, & Nayer
Images by Me

NYC 2011 Trip (1)

2011-11-14T15:35:00.001-05:00

Temporary break from the photoseries

(there will be replacement posts)

I HAVE to tell you ALL bout NYC!

It was fucking awesome. Although the bus rides to & fro, I wouldn't say, are particularly my favourite. part. Finally left university at 11ish, arrived at US border & it took forever! We arrived at like 1:30 but we didn't leave until like 2 hours later. =_= The 1st stop in NY, our hostel. It was actually really nice & clean for a hostel. Me, Diana & Emily also got to know this person named Steph. The 4 of us from then on spent the entire trip together.

So first things first, we got lunch at this pizza place. Apparently the best pizza in town, I would agree. I got this sausage stromboli & it tasted awesome.

Then we went to time square!!

Hahaa, how could we not. We even got a picture with NYPD police, they were really nice about it too! After quite a few hours there, we went back to our hostel to rest up for a bit & put our stuff in our rooms (it was in a storage room before cause we arrived before check in). Then we head down to Little Italy for dinner. There were SO many restaurants there & there was someone outside every restaurant that tried to lure us in. Finally we ate at this one restaurant cause they gave us free bread. Which tasted SOOOO GOOD.

I ordered the above Grilled Scallops with Prosciutto Shards and Melon Salad. Sounds a bit ridiculous that I ordered salad for dinner but it was so tasty. The scallops were a BIT too salty but the texture was still amazing. Emily got this pasta dish. Then Steph & Diana shared a Lobster dish I believe it was with asparagus, I took a bit and that was good too.

Then shopping at Canal Street. It's this place with all sorts of knockoffs. Then back to more shopping at Time Square.

THEN Emily & Steph went up to the Empire State Building but me & Diana didn't go because we were being cheap. However, we did get to go into a limo for a bit xP Now, we're in New York alright. Hehehe.

We went back to our hostel later, slept & voila 1st day in NYC

Stay tuned tomorrow for NYC Day 2.

Listening to "Without You" by David Guetta & Usher
Images by Me, a New Yorker, & a New York limo driver

11.11.11

2011-11-11T15:35:00.000-05:00

On 11.11.11,

make a wish at 11:11am

If you want, at the 11th second.

Dreams come through not because of magic

but because you believe in them

Listening to "Give Me Everything" by Pitbull, Ne-Yo, Afrojack, & Nayer

Image by Me
*Somewhere in New York*

10.11.11

2011-11-10T15:35:00.000-05:00

Don't you just love eggs?

Don't you just hate it

when someone breaks your egg yolk

Been so busy just to prepare myself for today

Going from Guelph to New York at 11pm sharp!

Listening to "Lonely" by 2NE1
Image by Me

08.11.11

2011-11-08T15:35:00.000-05:00

I believe, you are proud of me

Wherever you are.

Because I know you're like Autumn

Gone for now,

but you'll find your way back.

Miss you

R.I.P.

Listening to "Pumped Up Kicks" by Foster the People

Image by Me

07.11.11

2011-11-07T15:35:00.000-05:00

People who call someone else ugly

Pity them.

They simply don't have that inner beauty

to understand the true meaning of beauty.

Remember to always look up to the stars

rather than float above dirt.

Listening to "We Found Love" by Rihanna & Calvin Harris
Image by Me

05.11.11

2011-11-05T15:35:00.000-04:00

♥

Happy 5th Month

my baby Owey x)

Love you, no regrets
Thank you for making my life beautiful

Listening to "Just The Way You Are" by Bruno Mars

Image by Me

04.11.11

2011-11-04T15:35:00.000-04:00

You may smile because you have to

But you only laugh because you need to ♥

Definitions from wordnetweb.princeton.edu/

Smile:
A facial expression characterized by turning up the corners of the mouth
Usually shows pleasure or amusement change one's facial expression by spreading the lips, often to signal pleasure

Laugh:
The sound of laughing
Produce Laughter
A facial expression characteristic of a person laughing
Joke

Listening to "Lay It On Me" by Kelly Rowland & Big Sean
Image by Me

03.11.11

2011-11-03T15:35:00.000-04:00

The awkward moment when a Starbucks cup

Simply sums up all the words in your heart.

Because everything happens for a reason.

Listening to "Go Away" by 2NE1
Image by Me

02.03.11

2011-11-02T15:35:00.000-04:00

Good things do come in Surprises. ♥

"Belated" Birthday Party with...

Willie, Melanie, Rachel, Regan, & Stacy

Teehee

Listening to "What Doesn't Kill You (Stronger)" by Kelly Clarkson

Images by Me

01.11.11

2011-11-01T15:35:00.000-04:00

ALOHA!

This time last year, I had a whole months worth of what I called a Photo Series. So I kinda did some thinking in like the summer, and I thought why shouldn't I do it again this year? I do know that some of my readers really just are here to procrastinate so they want a long post about my day, but hey it's just going to be 1 in 12 months that I'm doing this, and they all kinda have their own subliminal messages anyway. So, voila. Once again I present you the first of my November issue blogs, part of MiaoBlog's 2nd Photo Series ♥

p.s. If you wanna check out the 1st series, please click here

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Some people are always longing to be a flower
Admired, only temporarily.

Listening to"Nothing Last Forever" by Maroon 5

Image by Me

31.10.11

2011-10-31T21:48:00.001-04:00

Happy Halloween my fellow goblins.
>_<

I kinda wished this month started on a Monday. So that. Wait, I haven't told you all! Hahaha, I've been keeping it to the last day. Not even. I'll tell you all tomorrow. x)

Yes! Teehee. How did you all spend your Halloween? I'm just being a nerd, nerding away right now. And just blogging and back to nerding. Stacy & Regan wanna watch a scary movie later, I'm afraid I'm probably gonna ditch them due to my cowardliness

Anyhow. Some super duper cute/meaningful pictures

Click to enlarge.

Don't forget to come by tomorrow! x)

Happy Halloween!! =)

Listening to "123" by Craig Smart

Images from facebook.com & iobad.com

30.10.11

2011-10-30T00:46:00.000-04:00

I was gonna blog on Wednesday, but I was camping by the cannon. I was gonna blog on Thursday, but I was too tired as I didn't get any sleep the night before Then on Friday, but I was too busy with my family & that was the same thing on Saturday, So I'm here now.

Should I back track all the way? So on WEDNESDAY! Woke up at 8.30 to grab a full breakfast cause I know it was going to be a long day. Class. Then guarding the cannon. Lunch. Guard the cannon again. Library break. Guard the cannon again. Group meeting. Dinner. Guard the cannon the rest of the night. Painted the cannon. Sounds simple enough? Except holy shit it was freezing outside. I wore like 1 tank, 1 tee, 1 long sleeve, 1 tank, 1 hoodie, & 1 autumn jacket. I was still freezing my ass off. & Thank goodness for the gloves that Lauren gave me!

So, we painted the Cannon a cat! It was touch holding that spray can while your hands were freezing. We all can tell u that for sure. Every now & then we had to go to this hair dryer & literally warm up our hands that way. & staying up the whole night was just crap in that weather, not to mention the fact that this Pizza Pizza douche didn't give us our pizza for free cause he was late, he also took off almost immediately like a crazy ass & almost knocked my friend with his crappy car. I am SO tempted to post his car license right here.... maybe I will. Wait for it.

Thursday. Finish painting the cannon. Mini breakfast. Class. Selling the cannons. Lunch. & by then I could feel myself going a little nuts from pulling an all nighter. Like it was about 1:30pm then but it felt like it was at least 7. Then class. Then back to the cannon but everything was sold. So went back to my res finally, took a shower, did hw. Fell asleep & woke up at 7:30pm feeling AS confused as ever. HW. Dinner. Went to Rachel's & Melanie's. HW HW HW HW. Hallucinated for a bit while waiting for Regan to be done so we can go back together. FINALLY went to bed at 11:30pm.

Technically I haven't actually slept for 39 hours. & due to my intense need to sleep, I was late for class. Literally waking up 7 minutes before class & RUNNING my ass off cause I need to hand in an assignment. Group assignment too. Came home to Toronto on Friday with my bed set all up! & I was suppose to see a chandelier in my dining room too, but that was late. Packed for my mom & all cause she flew back to Malaysia on Saturday. As of tonight when me & my sis go back, my whole family is literally all living in a different city.

That's it for now. Ciaos. Some pictures of the Cannon.

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25.10.11

2011-10-25T23:17:00.005-04:00

I love you all. I know this means nothing to you all, but for me it's... surreal? I've had this blog up for like 2 years & 3 months now & I've officially reach 10,000 views as of like yesterday. Thank you so much for reading, you have no idea :) ♥ I never really thought ANYONE would read my blog, never mind like an average of 30 people a day nowadays.Yesterday! I woke up to see a bag on my desk & I was like OMG. But I didn't have time to open it cause I was rushing back from class. SO, when I came back from class, this bag is from Regan, look!

The Bag

Its contents

A cupcake!

Hot Chocolate!

I'm so touched! I can't believe she actually remembered me talking about the fact I want a huge cup. Not to mention I didn't expect her to get it, I really was thinking of getting it myself. ♥ There goes my very 1st cup to my big cup collection! Thank you!!

TODAY. Was SUPER busy. So I woke up, did hw, did office hours for HTMSA (Hospitality & Tourism Student Association), hospitality class, shopped with fellow 1st year reps in preparation for tomorrow, RUSHED to marketing group meeting, rushed to get laptop, rush to my marketing class. FINALLY ate dinner at 9pm. Dinner tasted horrible too >_<

On top of that, it was raining like crazy the whole day & by the end of the day my shoes were soaking wet. Miao. Gonna head back to hw, ttyl readers x)

Listening to "White Knuckles" by OK Go
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22.10.11 - Birthday Post

2011-10-23T17:00:00.001-04:00

"Your words say one thing
but your tears say something your heart can't"
- Samantha Tam, the wise one

To be honest I'm blogging on the 23rd, but I don't wanna change the date of my title just in case people start thinking my birthday is on the 23rd. Which I actually wouldn't mind, but it's just not good to mislead people.

So yes, on Friday, something happened in my life that was really really something I don't wanna talk about... And fortunately for me, I didn't have to spend my birthday thinking about what happened on Friday, because. Well first off I had an econs midterm, which I think *I hope* I did pretty well on. And also, Owen came over to Guelph over the weekend ♥

Yea, he has like a programming contest on Wednesday, but he still came >_< So touched. I didn't really do anything special per say on my birthday though. Just went out for dinner with Owen & Melanie. Mmm thank you Mel, Stacey, Rachel & Regan for the super cute birthday card:

♥

Yes, it's really egg-citing ;) And I'm really lucky to have your girls in my university life. I swear if I didn't know you all, I'd be like 100% lonely and like probably a genius cause I'd wake up and study and procrastinate and get bored of procrastinating and then study some more and eat at the Pit all day and, just become an emo kid.

I mean I do still feel lonely sometimes cause I miss everyone else that's not in Guelph so much, but at least I'm not like putting on black eye shadow or something.

But yea, back to my birthday... yes Owen, I am aware you forgot to bring me my birthday gift xP LOL he went back to Toronto already, but I didn't wanna tell him that in person so he wont feel guilty. Teehee. I wanted to get a free cake cause I have this birthday coupon but this place was like under renovation and wont be open till Monday. So on Monday I'm gonna like go in there and say they are scamming me or something and get my cake then. xP Or they could just be really nice & understanding and just gimme my cake before I start a scene or something. Miao.

Kidding, ish. OO and omg replying people's birthday messages on fb? I love you all and thank you so much but I think I now have carpel tunnel syndrome. Miao >_< Anyhow. I'm finally 18 and an adult now. But... w.e. xP LOL ain't gonna change anything cept for the fact I can go to jail now, probably the only crime I'll ever commit in my lifetime is being too hungry, and killing too many animals for consumption... =(

Oh miaos. Happy Birthday to me >_<

Listening to "Stereo Hearts" by Ray Mak (Piano Cover)

Image by Me

21.10.11

2011-10-21T18:29:00.004-04:00

Don't you hate it

When you don't say what's really on your mind

Cause you don't want anyone to worry

and it ends up screwing you up even more?

*sigh* I don't know what to do...
I'm just gonna bite through this bullet
and hopefully ace my midterm tomorrow.

19.10.11

2011-10-19T23:55:00.000-04:00

So, yesterday!

Went to Montana's for lunch with my hospitality group as part of our assignment. It's really nice that all 5 of us actually get along like really well. I guess I'm starting to feel like not SOOOO lonely around here in Guelph. I mean, at least if I have a question I can have like people I could go to and like ask questions with.

Then at like 10pm, me & Regan got back to our residence to do DOOR PAITING!! It was actually really fun even though I really suck at painting don't I. Here are some pictures. Basically the picture of our hands are.... we both painted like 2 colours on our hand and like put that on our door, then we decided to high five and thus like the 4 pictures of our hands with the mixed colours:

And today!! Wednesday! Our "party/theme" night. Today's theme was Justin Bieber (courtesy of Stacey) & we watched "Never Say Never". & at one point he sung One Less Lonely Girl, and I was like T_T. I miss prom. Speaking of prom, Owen got this super cute sexay haircut hahaha. He doesn't like it, but I think it's so adorable xP Love you, silly.

Listening to "One Less Lonely Girl" by Justin Bieber
Images by me & Regan

17.10.11

2011-10-17T21:12:00.003-04:00

Found these question in somebody's notes on Facebook. Although I'm just picking some questions, cause if I do them all, it'll get really long & boring & pointless... you'll see

is there a boy in your life?
Boy? No. Man, yes.

are you afraid of falling in love?
Always

do you like the beach?
Duh, it's in my name

would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?
Art museum ftw!!

if you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?
Hell. No.

do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yeap yeap friends since std 6.

have you ever cried over a text?
Uh huh, it said "I Love You"

where's your last bruise located?
my knee.. during the time I tried to "Boo" Carrie in the cafe =/
Karma =_=

do you have a favourite pair of shoes?
The heels I wore to prom aka my very 1st pair I paid for

what was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
=( Sad thoughts

have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Ya, for example that guy who asked me to dance during prom >_<

My day has been good. I spent my Sunday writing up some 17 pages of notes (Microsoft Word, typed?). But yea I worked until like 11 at Stacey's place, panicked cause it was so late. Grabbed a late night snack (fries), ate, youtubed till like 12:30am =/ took a shower. TRIED to sleep, but as u can see, sad thoughts. It was dumb, but I guess I finally (after a long time) fell asleep. I dunno, it's just personal fear you know. Being away and stuff.

Also my blog yesterday is NOT about anyone that my friends know, it's not a random person either. Just saying that so that no one goes around spreading about this when I'm like sure you'd never figure out who I'm talking about unless you're ME. Literally.

OMG the weather has been horrible here in Guelph and I don't have like any winter wear with me except for this really thin jacket =_= But at the same time it's not cold enough to wear that. You know what I mean. It just sucks, miao.

Midterm on Saturday so I really have to get every done before to make time to study for Econs. Not to mention I have this charity "Think Pink" event going on breast cancer awareness like the night before, so I really REALLY need to get on with studying

Miao. OH I also remembered that I bought Lindt chocolate like before coming to Guelph and it's expired. But I don't care, it's chocolate pft. So I ate it anyway. It's been expired since like the the end of last month, so it's not THAT long ago right. Miao. Did I mention Oct just FLEW by, I mean it's the 17th already, and mind you 17th NIGHT. OMFG. It's like I didn't really get my share of a life this month have I. Oh wells, I don't mind if the rest of the months just fly by, SUMMER 2012! That's it for now Ciaos babes

Listening to "Hiding My Heart" by Adele

16.10.11

2011-10-16T10:25:00.000-04:00

If you have just read Leanne's blog, you may think that I'm writting off her topic. But I actually blogged about this quite a while ago, and after reading hers I remembered my own post about "looking rich". & maybe I'm referring to a specific someone.

You know what I can't stand?
People who try to look rich.

To begin with these people are so selfish. They go around splurging as if money falls from the trees or something. But in reality, they don't have the ability to do so. And yea maybe the money is yours, but don't you have loved ones in your life that deserve to live better aside from within your debts? But really, there are people who do this when money is not even theirs.

How much more selfish can you get? Really, I get your insecure and you think you need to look rich. But is it that worth it? Like are you mentally retarded or something? I mean I would actually understand if you are but you're not. Smarten up, and think about other people before you go around using money you don't have.

And really, if you're so dumb that you can't think of others, think of yourself. Buying expensive things doesn't make you rich. Having money makes you rich. You don't need no rocket science to figure that out.

To my future kids, if you ever DARE to spend money without thinking of other people first, you're gonna get smacked. You best believe your mom is one hell of an Asian parent.

Listening to "I Don't Know Much" by Aaron Neville & Linda Rondstadt

15.10.11

2011-10-15T23:06:00.004-04:00

Here's a really sweet video:

(If the above vid doesn't work, click hereto watch

Anyhow. I was just doing some thinking yesterday just before I went to bed. I've been studying with my new friends here pretty often. And to be honest, every time I go over, it's like we get distracted chatting to each other. And that kinda reminded me of, my babes in Toronto. I guess we're not so severe in terms of distraction level, but I have a feeling it's gonna get worse as I know them more.

But yea, I'd say my favourite ever study partner would be miss Joanna. Yea, for sure if you study with her, you'll get things done. But we always end up studying for so long that I actually end up spending a lot of money on either coffee or food... esp food cause I'm hungry from all that studying. But I guess no matter how hard we try to study at times, sometimes we just end up talking for like ever and by the time we realize we've spent so much time chatting, it's like REALLLY hard to get back to studying.

Then there's like my housemate/study partner Carrie. LOL now studying with Carrie can also result in really extreme results. Starting in grade 12, we started dragging Carrie along to study with us (me & Joanna). Then obviously I lived at her place after and we studied together like everyday? Dang she got bored of me >_< Or not. But yea the good thing about studying with Carrie is that she is SO quiet. She's either studying, playing games, watching drama's or she's sleeping. But then I wouldn't know, cause she'd be on her laptop so I'm like looking at her as if she's studying so hard, so I study hard too. Unless of course when she's sleeping, I just poke her xP

I don't really study with a lot of people regularly eh. And I don't know about you, but for me studying with your boyfriend is a big no no. There's one Saturday I came back from Guelph. & I went over North York Centre to study with him cause my parents were out picking apples. I studied absolutely nothing. Speaking of boyfriend, that dodo head has been AWOL *rawr*

& of course there's studying in Haig during lunch. That almost never ever works. Esp with cards and chips, I mean there's just so many distractions. Miao I miss all you crazy people.

p.s. my birthday's in a week. omg that's scary/sad cause I have a midterm. And since I blogged about wanting a big ass cup, water flask, HTM shirt, and cup noodles. Another thing I really would like to have is a keyboard protector. Those annoying plastic things that keep your keyboard oh so clean. I just thought about getting one cause I spent some time cleaning my laptop today. Miao.

Listening to "Can't Nobody" by 2NE1
Video by inspirationbygod via youtube.com

14.10.11

2011-10-14T12:22:00.002-04:00

What the fuck.
This post is going to be intense because I am so pissed right now.
And it's just like 12:24pm. Bitch please.

To begin with, I didn't even get like any sleep. You know why? Cause those damn motha fuckin ass floormates of mine decides fucking Thursday is fucking party night. Apparently this girl puked in the sink. EW. Like bitch did you not get the damn memo or something when yo parents said don't party too damn hard?

I really don't get university right now. Cause it's really just high school school with alcohol and drugs. Bitch what the fuck. If you are so insecure about yo god damn life, you should have gone to counseling not university. DUH. Are you stupid? Did you like get the bare minimum average to get in or something?

I mean really, if people like that can get into university, I have no idea what I worked so god damn hard to get my ass in here. I mean do these people not have a goal in life or something? I mean no wonder university is so expensive, cause they wanna make sure all these idiots don't keep coming back. JESUS. So yea, because of that I didn't really get any sleep. And guess what I spent like 12:30am to 8:30 am trying to get some sleep.

Did you learn opportunity cost here. Like hello, I just wasted 8 hours of my time. Thanks, really. Because if I wanted to pull an all nighter, I would've even got some of next weeks assignments done. But no, I decided to sleep but I couldn't. There should be like a residence hall for like lifeless party-ers only.

Then this morning, my marketing TA said the midterm review room is in MAC 201. So I came after my econs class and I god damn looked for that fucking MAC 201. And I was asking around and those admin people were like are you sure it's not MACS 201. Well guess what MACS 201 is, it's this like one profs small ass motha fuckin office. I mean if you don't know where I'm talking about, you should at least know where YOU are talking about. Hello, you're working in a university here, not dumb dumb land. & I actually asked a few people.

And MAC & MACS is two totally different ass buildings. But guess what, in the end of the day it was neither rooms, it was actually MINS 210. My TA fucking got the building AND the god damn ass room WRONG. HELL NO, You have got to be fucking me. These TA's are in their 4th year. I mean what have you been doing in university? You're suppose to LEARN here. HELLO?

& when I got there, none of the TA's even helped u review the midterm. They just gave u your scantron and the question sheet and the answers and you do everything on yo own. And they just sat like in some other corner and one of them was talking about how they live with their boyfriend. Bitch what the fuck. They could've just done this online if the TA's ain't gonna do shit.

I mean I was already pissed off enough looking for this mysterious fucking MINS building that my TA did not mention, then I have to deal with the fact that there is no actual help provided? I mean thank goodness I didn't fail my midterm and am like god damn stupid or something. Thank goodness I actually understand what I did wrong. & I bet all like what few hundred students who took the midterm will miraculously understand as well. It's like we so stupid we don't even know why we got the answer wrong to the question we god damn understand. Yes I'm being sarcastic.

Here goes my early afternoon blog.

Listening to "Fools" by Diane Birch

13.10.11

2011-10-13T22:40:00.004-04:00

Ok I wasn't going to start this blog with like an emo tone... But wth. W.T.H. Today after dinner, I went to like Rachel & Melanie's room with like my roomie Regan. & Melanie was just like playing with my hair and gave me the nicest hair style like ever. And she let me borrow her dress and wear her cute headband. And for ONCE in my life I actually looked really sweet and everything and I had a WHOLE buncha pictures. But guess what, somehow I don't know what I did, I'm now only left with one picture from my camera. And it's a blurry one. =_=

The only hope I have is Melanie took some pictures too, but really? I had a lot of really nice pictures taken courtesy of Regan. And I just screwed up and removed them all but ONE. BLURRY. PICTURE. Life is so unfair. I mean really, I actually looked good, like c'mon. COME ON. I'm so pissed. Here's the blurry picture....

You can just imagine how nice some pictures came out with like proper lighting and stuff. T_T SO EMO NOW!! I was gonna show Owen & be like ^^. Not to mention we were watching this video earlier where this gay dude (he really was) was like I'm sorry I'm more beautiful than your girlfriend, and Melanie was like that ain't true anymore. T_T EMOOOO. I'm so dumb =_=

*breath* I'm gonna blog about stuff I was gonna blog about if I'm in a good mood k... So yesterday, was at Rachel & Melanie's room too, with all of us and Stacey. See last week we had a pizza party so this week, we decided to have a cereal party... look at all our cereal:

Now, THAT's how you party in university. Duh. We're not sure what we're doing next week though, we'll see.

Also, remember the penguin cookies I blogged about a few days ago, I finally ate one yesterday, and I'm gonna show you everything!

Oh and today, I took quite a bit of on campus pics but you wont see them till like later... you'll see why! Miao miao. Now I'm gonna go and die in my own stupidity while you readers enjoy my blog. Ciao

Miao, I'm really emo. I was gonna use one of the pics as my new profile pic on fb and like tag my lovely new uni friends. I had it all planned out =( Miao, bye.

Listening to the crazy sound on my floor
Images by Regan & I

12.10.11

2011-10-12T15:35:00.002-04:00

Love,

I'll make you grilled salmon with poached eggs. Hmm should I put that on some pasta or with some mash potatoes or make it Asian?? & maybe some broccoli soup for appetizer & a chocolate fudge cake for dessert. >_< Now, we'll just have to wait till I'm desperate enough to do this. Miao, omg that made me so hungry. P.s. we'll just stop at main dish if I'm lazy.

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My one, my all, my only: Food ♥
Yes, I've been loosing weight since the summer. So Freshmen 15, come right at me please. OMG I'm so hungry, I'm thinking of waking up early tomorrow just to grab some breakfast. Mmm I'm already thinking of all the food I'm gonna get. (This was written yesterday night when I was super duper hungry, in the middle of the night)

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Saw this picture on Facebook, so touching
Click to enlarge
~~Puppy~~Kitty Love

Listening to "Headlines" by Drake
Image from somewhere on facebook

11.10.11

2011-10-11T15:35:00.000-04:00

Me Shall Dedicate This Post to Thee,
To the reader who checks more than once a day.
(Checks my blog that is, you know who you are)

Miao.

I'm liking checking out people's tumblr pages so often nowadays. Esp Carrie's. Girl, you better be posting new things up as often as you did in the summer. I feel like a creep trying to look for cute pictures in your tumblr to find no updates. >_<

This + some odd ass conversation later, I decided to draw up a little "boyfriend requirement" list. Yes yes I'm aware I already have one, and he's gonna see this and go like WTH and freak out if he doesn't match any of the following (which he will for the most part), but whatever. xP

Be loyal (sounds so simple, but so important)
Cooks for me. (WOOHOO!!)
Sexay. Cute. Smart (check, check, check! HEHEHE)
A good pillow
Lets me eat the food I want. Like CHOCOLATE & CORN & SASHIMI!!
Accepts my horribly quirky laugh
Not afraid to tell me the truth even though it would hurt
Takes water for me (Cause my dad does that & if not I drink too little water)
Loves me (wait, shouldn't this be first!?)
To be continued...?

I'm so random I know. The picture of the ladybug I took on my Saturday outing with my girlfriends:

Listening to "Alone" by Celine Dion Images by Me

10.10.11

2011-10-10T21:40:00.003-04:00

Honestly, I need to dance.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING FOLKS!

It was a really REALLY lovely Thanksgiving weekend, involving 3 Thanksgiving meals though only one included the actual turkey! Obviously since it's Thanksgiving, I would like to give thanks to all those in my life that appreciate me. Thank you for making my already beautiful life even more beautiful.

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"I" finally figured it out. It's loneliness. Don't get me wrong, change is one thing I don't fear. Being independent is something I've learned the hard way, but that feeling of being alone and that uncertainty. That's a bit new.

It just sucks cause I'm always alone. And when you're alone, you have all this time to reflect about yourself and the people around you. And you freak out in your own thoughts. I haven't been blogging very much. Even on the loneliest days, I'd rather keep it all to myself.

Does that make sense to you? I miss my girls. To be honest you guys were my high school family. After all I did spend way more time in school than I did doing anything else on a normal day. I miss meeting all of you during 3rd period lunch and we don't have to worry about what to say, or how to act because we already know what we think about each other.

I miss walking home with some of you. Just that brief moment in between school and home, and conversations keep spewing out of our mouths and we don't ever run out of words. I miss that. I know I haven't been out of high school that long, but it just feels so weird that everyday in school nowadays, none of you girls are here to listen to my nonsense.

Listening to "Alone" by Anders Johansson

08.10.11

2011-10-08T23:38:00.002-04:00

I would upload pictures but
I left my camera cord in Guelph! AHH

Miao. I'm BACK in Toronto and heck it felt good! Today, I woke up with the semi-self-manipulative belief that today is the 22nd. Yes, I personally switched up today with my actual birthday. This is because on my actual birthday, I'll have a midterm. =_=

So I woke up with the lovely sun shining on my face, got ready bla bla bla. And went all the way to Finch station to meet up with my LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY darlings!! In alpha order, Amelia, Carrie, Qiqi, Samantha, Sarah, & Vitak. Plus my super sexay cute ass boyfriend was with us too x) Teehee.

From Finch station, we took the bus to Steeles and literally WALKED across 3 regions: North York, Markham & Thornhill. xP (Inside joke but it's TRUE) & We did all this to get to this Middle Eastern restaurant called Paramount to celebrate why, my super sexay ass 18th birthday! One trend that remains the same for the last 3 years now is, I never celebrate my birthday on my actual birthDAY or even week o_O Despite my birthdays falling on weekends for the last 3 years now? Right??

Anyway. Thank you all for showing up, that alone was an AMAZING enough birthday present, of course the addition of Amelio's cute animal poster is a plus xP We ate, walked/took bus back to North York, went window shopping around Loblaws, Future Shop & Staples. Sat outside the North York Centre building place like "old women (+ an old dude)" just talking. Talking crazy pictures of a ladybug (that's really just me & Amelia). & Finally went back to our "separate university lives"

Short but good day. Wished more people could have turned out, but I'm satisfied enough. Can't wait for Christmas party now! xP Samantha asked me today what's the hardest thing about university. I guess I didn't give her the best answer, cause the hardest thing is all these reunions. Having to see all the people that you love, while knowing in the back of your head, "goodbye" is not far away.

Thank you for celebrating my "birthday" with me. ♥

Listening to "No Promises" by Shayne Ward

05.10.11

2011-10-05T21:21:00.002-04:00

I'm so sick it's sad.
Miao. I can keep going,
but it's just too sad.... So, happy stuff...

Happy 4th month! ♥
I love you darling.

My midterm yesterday? I think it was ok, as far as totally random odd questions being put aside, which there weren't too much of anyway. Missed the HTMSA first year party, kinda really sad. But something that just happened made me feel 100% amazing that I didn't go, because it would've been real bad.

I'm so tired, but I'm like trying super duper hard to get everything DONE before I go back for Thanksgiving this weekend! Can't wait for Saturday!! =) Watch me go crazy on Saturday. Anyhow. Back to homework. Ciao. Love you all.

02.10.11

2011-10-02T18:29:00.003-04:00

Just because you don't get a second chance,
doesn't mean you should sit there and sulk.
I took the initiative to lead you all,
So I'll take the initiative to lead us out of this.
One last time, I'm sorry, and it wont happen again.

What can I say, your team leader is back.

Thank you for all the comforting words. You have no idea how much they mean to me. Gonna study marketing now. 100% study mode until Tuesday night. Wish me luck. Won't be blogging. Juggling a midterm & being horribly ill is messed up enough.

See you all Tuesday night or Wednesday!! That's a promise. Ciao babes. Thanks for reading. Oh, and stay warm, it's really cold outside this weekend!! So I don't think it's gonna get any warmer tomorrow or w.e. Love.

Listening to "The Scientist" by Coldplay

01.10.11

2011-10-01T22:19:00.002-04:00

I'm feeling like a wreck now. I don't think I've ever made such a big mistake. And truth is, in life there's really no room for mistakes is there? That's something all guidance counsellors will lie to you about.

"You don't get another chance,
Life is no Nintendo game" - Eminem.

On a less "emo" topic. Happy Oct.. turning 18 soon?
Not that I'm feeling any of that at this moment

30.09.11

2011-09-30T15:35:00.001-04:00

Had to share this,
Got it from the Only In Malaysia page on FB

Cucu : Nenek!! nenek..!! Datuk meninggal !!
Nenek :Bila cu??
Cucu :Baru je, jatuh dari p0k0k sukun, cepat nek
kerumah, keluarga sudah bkumpul semua, mari cepat
nek !!
Nenek : Kejap cu, nenek pinjam HP kamu dulu cu..
Cucu : Nak tpon siapa siapa nek ??
Nenek : Bukan! nenek nk buka facebook dulu..nenek nk ubah status
dari BERKAHWIN menjadi JANDA

.::Translation::.
Grandchild: Grandma!! Grandma..!! Grandpa passed away !!
Grandmother: When (grandchild) ?
Grandchild: Just happened, (he) fell off from a breadfruit tree, quick grandma (let's) go home, the whole family is there.
Grandma: Hold on, I need to borrow your handphone (cellphone)
Grandchild: Who do you wanna call grandma?
Grandma: No! Grandma needs to go on facebook, I want to changed my status from "Married" to "Widowed"

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Miao. SOOOO tired. Woke up today. & I immediately felt something was wrong with my body. True enough, I got ready for class and all and by the time I got to class, I had a severe headache, my head was so warm & my muscles were aching like crazy. All throughout both my classes, I couldn't focus at all because my leg muscles were like so freaking painful.

So yea I was gonna study on my way back to Toronto, but I was more like close to tears cause of the pain so I kinda just tried to fall asleep... bla bla bla. Yes I'm back in Toronto!! But I'm really busy, midterm on Tuesday and I've barely... even started studying. + I believe I have 8 chapters.

It's ok, I can finish 3 chapters in 4 hours plus. Miao, me & my hardcore studying... it's probably why the reason I'm sick. According to my dad, it's probably a virus infection... I was gonna say viral infection.... but I'm not sure if that's right? Time to google after I'm done with my midterm! Choochoo (train).

Listening to "You're My Number One" by Enrique Iglesias

27.09.11

2011-09-27T21:34:00.002-04:00

This is gonna be a super quick post cause I just put myself in a really horrible situation (partially due to slacking) & I have a midterm in exactly one week. What? I haven't even touched my marketing textbook... wait OMFG.

Hehe.. SCREWED much? Anyway I really really miss everyone! And and.. in regards to yesterday's post.. if you REALLY wanna get me something... I'm serious, my birthday wishlist would be cup noodles. To be specific? Korean cup noodles, and if everyone bought me like one, I'd be satisfied till the end of the year. I'm assuming if like some 10 of u attend my birthday party buffet lunch ? or dinner? That will be held on the Thanksgiving weekend.

Love you girls!! Miao, CUP NOODLES FTW!

Miao Miao.

~~Listening to "~~ PANIC!!?!?!?

26.09.11

2011-09-26T15:07:00.004-04:00

Happy 26th darling ♥
I wonder what we should call today? Miao...

University so far? Online quizzes suck. I mean econs is fine. But the business one, they never give you the results right away for one, & when they do, they don't give you the answers. WHY?! I'm sorry I'm so dumb that I get like 1 question wrong on both quizzes so far, & I'm so paranoid about it. It's like, you almost got perfect, but that one bloody question just ruins your life. T_T

Miao. >_< Don't you hate it when you just get one question wrong on like a test/quiz/ (my law exam) / miao?

My birthday is coming up soon... but I was just like curiously looking around for things I should buy myself for... miao but I ended up with a list. (Please do not get it for me, I will ... probably... get it myself) but really, don't get me anything...

A BIG mug.

Why? Hehehe, they are like the PERFECT size for instant noodles, not kidding. I remember when I was young, I used like these big cups at my uncles place to eat instant noodles. And for like tea & hot chocolate or w.e, just so cool.

A Starbucks Tumbler/Flask

I've been drinking at Starbucks for like ever now. So, I heard if you get the big flasks, you essential get a big cup of w.e. for the price of a small. Not to mention, there's this deal on campus that allows me to pay for a small & get the amount of coffee of whatever flask I bring + get stamps. So yea, I'm gonna/ wanna get a Starbucks flask... tumbler? Tumblr (kidding)

Eat. Sleep. Travel. Tshirt/hoodie

It's this t-shirt or there's a hoodie from the University of Guelph's Hospitality & Tourism Management department. They come in like what seems like a million different colours, so yea! I wanna get.... two... for... something but miao x) This is more for someone else's birthday than mine.. but miao.

I dunno, I don't have a HUGE list, I've got this one salt & pepper mushroom shaker that's like made of silver but I think it's like $64 for like 2 super tiny small sets. It's from William Ashley, that's more of a wait till you get a big paycheque self-indulging thing as oppose to a 18th birthday party present thing. Miao.

None of the pictures are like accurate, but miao, you don't have to worry anyway, cause you're not getting those for me! Miao!!! Don't make me feel bad. I'm just blogging for personal reference here. Miao Miao. & someone's getting me yet another plushie! >_< hehehe

Listening to "Love On Top" by Beyonce
Images by aseriesofserendipity.tumblr.com, cooking.com, htmsa.ca

25.09.11

2011-09-25T23:50:00.002-04:00

Something feels missing.
It's this little feeling where...
Your past comes back to remind you
The thing's you've lost
The people that left.
I remember once again..
that if you really love someone
No amount of time can ever
make their departure feel any easier.
I hope if there's an "after world".
You will look at me,
and be proud of me.
I want you to know I miss you
And maybe one day,
we'll meet again
and spend our days just like we use to.

♥

21.09.11

2011-09-21T15:55:00.003-04:00

Saw this from Sky News,
these baby squirrels were rescued after the
hurricane in UK got the better of their homes
and separated them from their mom. >_<
So sad but so CUTE at the same time ♥

Sometimes I do the craziest things that I surprise myself. Yesterday, I finally went in front of my Hospitality class and stood there for whole minutes telling them why I should be their 1st year rep. To be honest I didn't expect it to go that well, but for some reason, people actually thought I was funny. Guess what? All that hard work, MAJOR NERVOUSNESS and the hardcore decision (semi-crazy) to push myself actually paid off. I am officially part of the council of the HTMSA, and I am your first year representative, it is some of the freakiest, more unbelievable thing I have done so far.

Wow. That's way bigger than performing on stage alone or getting that 97.5% on my Gr12 Law exam or having Owen as my boyfriend. Ok fine, maybe having Owen as my boyfriend bigger than that, I don't want him to be jealous! Hehehee I love you xP I hope I wont disappoint anyone, especially those who voted for me, THANK YOU SO MUCH, I will do my best to do whatever it is I'm suppose to do.... what am I suppose to do again? o_O

Miao. Anyhow, I'm going to go back to hardcore studying, cause for the longest time I was really distracted by this page. Do NOT click if you don't plan to be distracted for a really long time. So ciao *phew*

Listening to "This I Promise You" by N Sync
Image from Sky.com

20.09.11

2011-09-20T15:48:00.002-04:00

It is FREAKISHLY, almost the end of the month!
As a matter a fact, I have officially spent 2 thirds of September in university! And it's starting to hit me, that omg I'm so old that I'm actually age-appropriate to go to university. AND I will be turning into an "adult" in about a month. It is FREAKY. I can no longer act like... cute >_< cause I will be an adult now. OMG!

On the slightly more serious note. OMG I felt like I haven't done anything productive or like hardcore studying ever since I got into university. I'm like so chill, it's scaring me-self. Don't worry. I will get onto hardcore mood (hopefully) as soon as I finish this blog post.

It's a lovely weather today, especially in comparison to yesterday. Although I think I might have developed a minor (thus far) cold from the horrible rain yesterday. Didn't exactly wake up feeling the best that I should. Not to mention my boyfriend hasn't replied my text. Miao.

Haven't got the results for the HTMSA.
Will tell you how it went when I get the results!

Listening to "All Or Nothing" by O-Town

19.09.11

2011-09-19T21:59:00.002-04:00

As promised, I will blog today.

I was really low yesterday. But I'm good again. 100% for econs quiz (unlimited attempts) and 95% for business quiz (one attempt). Esp for my business quiz I only read through like 100 pages in like 3 hours cause I got my textbook late (not because I was procrastinating, tyvm).

Miao miao. So yea I'm feeling a lot better today compared to yesterday. Also, preparing a powerpoint presentation for tomorrow. I, SeaYunn Tan, want to be your 1st year rep for the Hospitality and Tourism Management Student Association. In case you're wondering, in actuality, I'll just say HTMSA cause that's the short form.

Miao. The weather really sucks today, rain almost like all day. >_< my shoes are wet right now. And I'm sitting in the lounge with my Guelph friends: Regan, Stacy, Rachel, & Melanie. I'm not doing that bad in Guelph. I'm a little quiet, but I just need that time you know... before I open up. OOOOO. p.s. guess what I saw in the weekend in Loblaws:

LITTLE PENGUIN CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES!
My sister bought them for me! hahahaha!!! ♥♥♥
Miao *ahem* Back to work now, ciao...

Listening to "To make you feel my love" by Kelly Clarkson
Image by Me

18.09.11

2011-09-18T22:46:00.002-04:00

Yes, I've been "gone" from my blog for so long.

There's this feeling of emptiness that has been lingering within me. I dunno. I just feel so hopeless, so unmotivated. It's like I lost my passion, and I just need to pick up the pieces but I feel there's just something more to this that I haven't figured out.

I saw a girl today, while eating dinner. So careful in her eating. You can see from her body, she could have some sort of eating disorder, but from what she's eating, I'm guessing she's working on it. But the scars remain, or so it seems, from what has been. It's almost as though she is examining every single bite. And there I was, looking at her eating, while I eat my "healthy" salad like a hooligan compared to her =_=.

I miss everyone so much. I miss food. I miss that sense of familiarity. I miss being confident. But time will help me through all this. I just know.

Listening to "Nobody's Perfect" by Jessie J.

14.09.11

2011-09-14T21:33:00.001-04:00

Yea, in my face.

13.09.11

2011-09-13T10:30:00.005-04:00

Baby Owen ♥
I lub u. x)

Ha, forgot to tell you on the other blog bout my first Econs class. The FIRST thing my prof told me about the year (well almost first thing) is that I need to cancel ALL activites on Saturday, 22nd of October because we have a mid-term on that day from 1pm-3pm. Isn't that fun? It also happens to be my 18th birthday T_T. Fine, the only thing that's comforting me right now is that Owen may come over to Guelph, so we could chill together after my mid-terms or something. ♥

MIAO. ok. Econs class yesterday & Business class yesterday. I'm starting to really like my schedule. And really hate my neighbours. Oh well, I will be studying in the library most of the time anyway, since my roomie studies in the library too, we can go together!! Wooohoo, so I wouldn't worry about my neighbours too much I guess. Hospitality & Marketing today! Can't WAIT!

Relationships can be so fragile eh? I kinda dreamt about something freaky which turned out to be freakier that I thought, cause I was actually dreaming of something real. And I just want you to know, I'm always here. I mean unless I die I won't be here. But that aside, nothing else will matter.

Listening to "Invisible" by Skylar Grey

11.09.11

2011-09-11T21:51:00.002-04:00

GUELPH!

First lecture on FRIDAY! It was Economics & the teacher said RUBRIC. OMG all you high school teachers who lied to us just to scare us. I swear high school teachers must be laughing their ass off knowing how many students they have scared. There's also a Juggling club! Which mind you, I wont join. Sorry, but with plans to work and do really well in school and my other interest, there's just no room for something like juggling when I don't even... like it?

My roomie also went back for the weekend. Leaving me alone to suffer from the crazy people living next to me. There are two guys, they have a flat screen tv, they ALWAYS have company, and they ALWAYS play the same old songs. T_T No offense, if you wanted to party that much, you should've gone to Western U?

On SATURDAY, I walked to the Mall with this new girlfriend of mine, and we just bought groceries and stuff. Her position is worse than mine cause she lives in Ottawa, so like if I ever feel the need to complain, I'll think about her.

O, in UoG, restaurants close early on Saturdays. I went out at 7:30 to grab dinner to find ALL restaurants closed, cept one but they had a private function. And I live in the North restaurants and I had to walk all the way South just to get dinner. And I wouldn't even be able to find it without the help of this girl. Like I was PANICKING. I mean no dinner? Really? But yea. It ended with a tasty dinner, so it's all good.

Today I woke up at 8:30 to the sound of some idiot playing a bass guitar downstairs. Isn't that fun? But I didn't really need more sleep, if not I would've been really grumpy. & it's been a really boring day today that I was being super unproductive with. Partially because I don't really have anything to do... yet. Ish. Miao. Ciao. Oh, I missed the res meeting cause I was busy procrastinating with youtube. Whoops. Oh wells, I bet it wasn't important if not they wouldn't have it on a Sunday.

Miao, will update you with my econs & FIRST night class ever tomorrow, Intro to Business! ;)

Listening to "The Story Of Us" by Taylor Swift
Image by Me

08.09.11

2011-09-08T10:02:00.004-04:00

It is 1:16pm as I am typing this.

Yesterday was the last official day before we're back to studying. Did quite a bit, hung out, ate free bbq lunch, visited the bookstore, things are really expensive there!! Like a sweater for $60 (does the Owen face: @_@).

Today!! I woke up EARLY cause I wasn't sure if I had to go to my seminars, but apparently they dont all start until next week! So I don't have class today. Anyhow, met these two girls that are also taking the HTM class (hotel & tourism management). We got to know each other, ate breakfast. Then I went back to my room for a bit, finally opening that can of Arizona Green Tea with Ginseng and Honey that Owen gave me. And for some reason, it just felt like the best drink I've ever tasted. Then I had a moment of epiphany, which is 100% private. *Note to self, check private blog.

Ok, got my bus pass, didn't get my OSAP cause the line was really long. Ate lunch with my roomie Regan. OOOOO bought a ring,

Had a LONG day, but it was all fun and nice. Spending it with all my lovely nice new friends at Guelph. You guys have no idea how grateful I am. Miao. Am super tired. TTYL! Ciao

Listening to idiots in my hallway in the middle of the night, just because I started blogging in the morning, doesn't mean I finished blogging in the morning... and well more like afternoon
Image by Me

06.09.11

2011-09-06T23:10:00.002-04:00

Day 2 at Guelph. What can I say?
I'm a big kid now xP

Woke up early today (in my standards at least) to catch breakfast at 9 for 50cents. Turned out it was just cereal and oranges, but hey. Joining in for the fun of the "res" spirit right? Then pretty much after, me & Regan & Stacy, or Stacie (shoot I really have to find out soon) plus Christine went to this downtown Guelph trip. Pretty interesting, pretty small downtown (hahahha), but I suppose there are you know a few places I could check out like sometime? Quite a few restaurants I can go and eat in. That's good.

Then went back to my room for a bit after the trip, then went to a community meeting, then a B. Commerce meeting, then a Hospitality & Tourism Management Majors meeting. All 3 back to back. The HTM meeting was really REALLY cool. I finally met like people IN my major which is really nice, plus the free lunch, free shirt, free thing around the neck. And we were split into groups and we did a whole buncha nice stuff and I had a really nice chat with some of them.

Best thing? They were giving us raffle tickets to win like cookbooks or a trip to New York CITY. I mean sure someone always wins these raffle stuff, but truth is the winner is never you. I know you know what I'm talking about. But I was like it'll be really nice if I could win the cookbook. And I didn't, so by the time they were announcing the winner for NYC, I was like that sure is hell not me, but I was wrong! LOL OMG I won a ticket to NYC costing $225. That's a nice paycheque, even though it's not really money, but still. JEEZ wow.

I got back, relaxed in my room for a bit, then went out for dinner with Regan & Stacy (or Stacie) at like this in campus cafe, because there was this pop culture trivia game going on. And we just randomly decided to join. To be honest none of us knew the answers to like most of the questions, but somehow, we won too? Wow, it's my lucky day I know. I'm not too sure what it is we won, we'll get it like after, but I believe it's like a giftcard to somewhere?

The view on the way...

Then me & Regan went to this residence meeting, where because I was "the latecomer" got quite a bit of the attention *awkward*. Then the two of us, plus this girl... I believe it's Jessie or Jessica? I'm sorry, I'm really bad with names, went to watch an outdoor movie! With free popcorn! Courtesy of UoG once again. The movie was nice, Something Borrowed, but it was FREEZING outside. OMG.

So yea, great day today. I miss my boyfriend like crazy. And when I say that, I mean I miss every single one of you crazy people of my life that's just NOT physically with me at the moment. T_T.

Listening to "Super Bass" by Nicki Minaj
Images by Me

05.09.11

2011-09-05T16:14:00.002-04:00

Thank you babe for everything you've given me, esp
that flashlight to keep my world bright
all the food to keep my tummy happy
and all that love to keep me from feeling lonely.
Happy 3rd month Mr. Owen Yeh ♥

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

This is easily one of the more bittersweet moments in life. Woke up at like 8 this morning because I'm FINALLY going to Guelph. Well as I'm typing this, I'm already in Guelph. But yea, woke up, did LAST minute packing aka put my glasses into my bag! Essential!! Then really just had an early morning chill session with my family.

Left Toronto with Qiqi's family (thanks for ride!!) at like 9:20? and arrived at Guelph at like 10 plus. Guelph and Toronto is actually REALLY close. Like 75km away? For some reason, it felt much further before.

Anyway, since I got here, I met my roommate, Regan, and like Stacy or Stacie? shoot, Rachel & Solange. A buncha other neighbours, but you know my memory when it comes to names. Got my student card like immediately, ate lunch, watched a football game, it was really cold today so we all got Starbucks and now we all just chilling in our rooms for a bit. Weather? 17 degrees, and it was like 30 yesterday. The sudden plunge of temperature just makes me wish a certain someone was here with me to give me a hug >_<

Guelph is pretty cool actually so far, so many free activities for O-week! including quite a bit of free food for the first week. It's going to hit me soon that I'll miss Toronto, but hey, that's life. It's always changing, and before you know it I'll be back in Toronto. Try not to miss me too much ;)

O, nobody call me please. Text me, my number is still Toronto-nian for now. Will update you when it's not. AND some pictures...

My SCHOOL bag/ supplies

The box that's been to KL, Dubai, Toronto & now Guelph

All the stuff I'm packing. Don't I look like a hobo? xP

My "morning" look

Bringing the Arizona that Owen gave to me!
I was going to drink it on the way,
but that didn't happen. So I'll drink it later! xP

Listening to "Good Life" by One Republic
Images by Me

03.09.11

2011-09-04T01:02:00.002-04:00

SO, I'M BACK!

Just in case you're wondering, I hardly ever pre-write blogs. I mean, what's the point about blogging about today with yesterday's emotions. ANYHOW.

Woke up at 9am today! T_T I have to get use to waking up early again in like a week. But today I woke up early cause I was working! My first ever PAID job. So, I'm was working down at the CNE, for Downy's National Hug Challenge. To be honest I don't really like hugging strangers, I mean, duh? So luckily all we have to do, is pick a partner and hug that person all through the day. We're a buncha flash mob huggers. o_O Am Me Making Senses?

Worked from 11 to like 3, we're suppose to work till 4, but it ended early. Nevertheless, my skin was burnt like crazy. See, we all wore our normal tops, on top of that we would wear our Downy T-shit/uniform. And on TOP of that we have to wear a sweater to cover it all up until we finally strip and hug. So you can imagine wearing 3 layers of clothes when it is 32 degrees. Hahah. No fun.

It looks like I kinda got a fake tan. Which is sad coz my last name IS Tan. WTH right. Miao. And my legs are so sore right now. We walked all throughout the day. Probably the one thing I learned from the job is, let's just say, some people in this world are... different.

Ok, so Thursday, I spent it with Carrie & Joanna. We went karaoke and then subsequently ate fruit parfait and chocolate waffle. That's how I spent my Saturday's earnings. The rest of the money I promised to give my mom. So while I worked for like 4 hours and earned $30, my mom earned $45 for giving birth to me today in like... one second. That's kinda how long it takes for her to transfer money from my account to hers. =_=.

Watched a lot of movies since Thursday too, like, Monga, Going the Distance (T_T), Year One, Au Revoir Taipei, and.... it's that it? hmm. Bad memory. x) Was suppose this super emo movie but there was technical difficulties.

Moving into res in 2 days...

Listening to "... hmm too tired to think/listen to music

02.09.11

2011-09-02T15:35:00.000-04:00

Don't you just hate Cancers.
I mean the disease, not the horoscope.

D,
Dear (I don't think you want people to know it's you.. or need people to know for the matter). You know I love you. And you know I've lost many people in my life because of cancer. I still remember all the times you'd talk about carcinogen and stuff. I want you to know that no matter what happens to your grandmother, it will all be ok. It's ok to be worried, but sometimes life is only as worth it as you make it to be. No matter what happens, you must believe that your grandma has been blessed to have a great life, one with you in it. Regardless, she has my blessing, I hope she'll win this tough battle. Hunny, I'm going to say this until you get annoyed with me, but it's going to be ok.

Yes, another pre-written blog post. Dedicated to my beloved great friend.

01.09.11

2011-09-01T15:35:00.000-04:00

Did I say I wasn't going to blog? LOLL Well you know me xP But actually this blog is slightly pre-written. And I'm just here to share a song that deeply touches my heart atm. The words that are underlined and bold-ed are the phrases that I really wanna say...

"Ohhh

I have been searching for your touch
Unlike any touch I've ever known
And I never thought about you much
Til I'm broken down and all alone, ohhh

Though I don't understand the meaning of love
I do not mind if I die trying, ohhh
Took it for granted when you lifted me up

I'm asking for your help
I am going through hell
Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice
You cut out all the noise
And now that I can see mistakes so clearly now
I'd kill if I could take you back

But how? (x2)

I can feel it in my guts
What's going on with him now
And don't patronise me with lies
I'm a man, be a woman now, ohhh

I have been bound by the shackles of love
And I don't mind if I die tied up, ohhh
Took it for granted when you lifted me up

I'm asking for your help
I am going through hell
Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice
You cut out all the noise
And now that I can see mistakes so clearly now
I'd kill if I could take you back

But how? (x4)

Ohh yeh
Why must we be so ugly
And please do not think ill of me
Why does the one you love
Become the one who makes you want to cry
Why? (x3)

(And how?
How?)

But I don't understand the meaning of love
I do not mind if I die trying (x3)"

Listening to "How" by Maroon 5
Video by xiki1810 via youtube.com

31.08.11

2011-08-31T18:27:00.002-04:00

Got this from the UP page on Facebook.com
So cute x)

"IM NOT GONNA STARVE, I JUST LOVE ICE CREAM"
Samantha promises that she'll be toned by the next time we meet her (I believe that's Thanksgiving) and that she wants me to post this up on my blog. =) There. xP

Happy Merdeka to all my fellow Malaysians and Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri to all my fellow Muslim readers. Thank you so much for tuning into this blog and may you have a wonderful festive season.

I was going to blog about emo stuff, but I kinda forgot what I was going to say, so I'm just gonna leave it. Probably wont blog again until Saturday, cause I'll be busy. And not even sure if I'll blog on Saturday cause I'm working half day. Miao.. We'll see.

Hope everyone is nicely packing for university (if you're moving) if not, just have fun getting ready for university! Not packing automatically makes your university life THIS much easier. Trust me. Miao. I'm actually DONE packing. I'm just left with last minute stuff like my spectacles and my laptop, cause I obviously still need them. lol. Miaos. That's it for now. Ciao

Listening to "Last Chance" by Maroon 5

30.08.11

2011-08-30T14:06:00.002-04:00

Samantha told me on Facebook "dont be crying instead of bloggin", I'm here. Blogging, instead of crying.

I am.... packing. See, I'm so enthusiastic about it. LOL. I actually like packing, cept for the leaving part. I'm such a weirdo I know. I've grown to appreciate "Virtual Hugs" and now that I'm leaving for Guelph, more people will experience this type of hug. During which you're supposed to remember a moment in your life when I've hugged you and in theory, it should make you feel a bit better.

Talking about hugs, I was told I stole Noel's "Hug Virginity". x) Hehe, I'm sorry if that made you feel uncomfortable actually =_=.

Erm, I've got some pictures, but I suppose I'll pile it up in one blog post. AND I burnt my Sims to death yesterday by accident. The weird thing is that... did you know Grim Reapers can socialize with people? and I was like o_O Aren't they suppose to be invisible? Anyhow, I didn't save the part that I died, so I'm still alive. LOL. Hehe, why am I playing Sims at this time again?

Conversations with the people I love such as my lovely gurl Denise make me remember that there are relationships in this world that can truly last no matter the obstacles. ♥ With that in mind, I want to tell a few people who read my blog that will be sad when we part ways for university, that this feeling is only temporary. You know sure as hell that if you ever face a problem, you can give me a call, or talk to me on msn. And if things get really bad, I can rush from Guelph to Toronto in an hour (Greyhound express bus). Not to mention, I'm coming back to Toronto about twice a month. Mainly to spend with my family, but what's the harm if you wanna meet me right?

That's why my name is Sea Yunn, it's just that bloody hard to get rid of me. I love you all. Don't be sad for long. We'll meet again in no time, and laugh about how we were worried that we'd leave for a different place. If you need to, cry once, but not once more.

Listening to "Last Curtain Call" by Maroon 5

28.08.11

2011-08-28T02:53:00.005-04:00

My life is no short of farewells.
Some that mean forever,
some farewells have lasted a decade,
some just years,
others months,
weeks,
& Lucky ones just days.

Unless a farewell means like the day after tomorrow, chances are, I hate them. I mean I've had enough farewells in my life. And no matter how many times I've experienced such things, I just can't seem to get over how much it could hurt. That the heart can actually miss someone so much and that one touch can really heal everything.

I never intended to leave Toronto for university. Never intended for another farewell. Never intended to add yet another person to my "goodbye, I'll miss you, don't you dare forget me" list. I know we'll end up just fine, but for the thousandth time in this blog, it's only sane for me to worry.

ANYHOW, despite being sad as hell. We all know, the least I could do is leave in freaking STYLE or at least try to. I've already got my university bags sorted out....

My small, compact sling bag.
Perfect for outings where I only require minimal belongings
such as just my camera, wallet & phone

My medium sized, many compartment bag.
Perfect for outings where I'm bringing a lot
of stuff to keep me organized and
stylish at the same time.
Also comes with a sexay extra shoulder strap.

My HUGE, bottom-less seeming bag.
Perfect for outings where I need to bring
documents and files for which my bag will help
me keep them straight and neat. Bad if I'm bringing
a lot of other stuff, especially small items.

Back to being "serious". Dear "Farewells", stop being so evil to me ok. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME. Why can't every place I end up be like a 5 minute walking distance apart? or at least 5 minutes by car away I can stand. But like what Guelph is an hour & a half away by car & Malaysia is 23 hours by flight away =_=. FML.

Oh miaos, stay tuned, I'll blog more about the things I'm bringing to Guelph, I think. Hmm miao?

Listening to "Moves Like Jagger" by Maroon 5 & Christina Aguilera

27.08.11

2011-08-27T23:40:00.003-04:00

Happy Birthday Amelia!

As blogged, it was Amelia's birthday/ farewell/ pool/ sleepover party yesterday. It was really a mini pool party compared to last time. We only had 10 people total: Amelia, Chris, Vivian, Samantha, Noel, Alex, Joannee, James, Owen & obviously, me? xP

See, multi-coloured plastic cups
hahaha, SO CUTE xP

So yea, we played Blitz, we swam, we burst quite a bit of water balloons and.... some water guns were kinda busted. We played Life, apparently I'll retire with $2.2mil o_O But still won the game, so whatever xP Then I guess we kinda just ate ate ate ate ate, then I was the banker for the next round of Life during which Chris won. Samantha broke her OWN washroom record by going to the washroom 11 times. Anyhow...

Amelia's Mango birthday cake
(with Chris as side)

2nd round of Life

Our (kinda failed) candle campfire

BURNING MARSHMALLOW FTW

So yea, OMG I absolutely hated the moment I teared up when I gave Samantha a hug when she was leaving my place. SOO SORRY. It was just such a spontaneous-realization-moment. Joannee, Alex & Noel also left after dinner leaving the rest of us sleeping over. Watched a buncha crazy youtube videos, then a little chat before we finally all dozed off. With James sleeping on my sofa(s).

We actually woke up early this time, ate breakfast, had Owey & James nerd away, ate lunch, got my dining table, some 8 weeks after purchase o_O

Then cleaned up my house, went downtown to this Buskerfest thing. This is epic, drawn by this one dude:

Respect yo. And I hate it when photobucket rotates my shit, but I'm too lazy to rotate that last pic back. But yea.. stay tuned tomorrow.. or the day after tomorrow for my little "farewell" post, ciao

Listening to the silent nights....

25.08.11

2011-08-25T18:01:00.002-04:00

I spent like 2 bloody hours cleaning the pool. A gentle reminder to my future self and all my readers, if you become rich, and you decide to get a pool. OR get a house with a pool in it already. You don't want it to be outdoors unless you are sure as hell you or someone can clean it. I'm telling you, it is freaking tough work. AND my pool is considered by the professionals to be one of the cleaner pools compared to average, like I have to clean it & add stuff in about once every two weeks. Whereas the average is once every week. OMG. I have never been so happy to live in a country where it gets too cold to swim in half the year, meaning, I don't have to clean the pool again this year! WOOHOO.

THAT, was a long ass paragraph. lol. I'm so hungry right now. Apparently cleaning vigorously for someone my size for 2 hours uses up about 480 calories. YEA. FOOOOODDD.

Hmm. Miao. Ciao.

Listening to my inner thoughts

24.08.11

2011-08-24T23:11:00.002-04:00

We just did ONE thing, & an hour passed.
=_=.

So so so, what brings you here my readers. LOL I meant to blog yesterday but I kinda feel asleep. First things first, good day today. All that waking up early paid off ;) Movie, bubble tea, walks, exercise, food, soup x) ♥

Hmm. Toronto & nature currently is pretty shit. Apparently some 5.8 magnitude earthquake (that I did not feel) yesterday and today, tornado warnings in most of southern Ontario. Really, what are the odds? No tornado here atm, but the rain ... pretty heavy, not to mention, it's doing BAD things to my pool. *sigh* probably have to go clean it again tomorrow before yet another pool party on Friday! =)

But did I mention TORNADO warning? omfg, if you don't see me blog tomorrow or Friday, I'm dead. pft. pft. pft. TOO YOUNG TO DIE YO. *chillax*

Ooo got a new iRobot vacuum. Coz the old one (if you've been reading my blog) is getting... old. So presenting a newer, smoother, longer lasting, but kinda uglier (to me) version of the new babe.

Gosh, my mom was happy enough when we got the first one, now she's even happier to get the second one. She's even contemplating getting a robot vacuum for our pool. o_O Speaking of moms, she's still bugging me about choosing to go to Guelph over Schulich. Note to mom, IT"S TOO LATE, I"M GOING TO GUELPH.

Oh miaos... that it for now. Kinda forgotten what I was gonna say.... ciao.

Listening to "The Truth" by Kris Allen & Pat Monahan
Image by Me

22.08.11

2011-08-22T23:58:00.003-04:00

Of course I'm sad.

To be honest.. more than anything my upcoming pool party is more of a farewell party. I really hope I don't cry. It's true, I've been through such a journey. Obviously it's not the end, but really girls & guy & everyone else, I'm gonna bloody miss you ok. Like wtf. I'll miss you like shit. Even shit doesn't stink as much as me going to Guelph for the next FOUR years. T_T

I've been trying to ignore this thought the whole summer.. but it hit me today. I'm SO close to the end of the month. SO close to the next month. We wont be celebrating our 3rd month together.... *sigh* At least we have technology on our side eh.

I'm sorry. Don't mean for the emo post.. but I decided to start blogging and that kinda just poured within seconds. Well the good thing bout this times pool party.. (ignoring the low attendance count) is that I can take pictures.

Listening to "Louder" by Charice

20.08.11

2011-08-20T23:54:00.003-04:00

Now that I've taken the G1 test, and mind you, crossed out one of my 2011 resolutions. Seo, taking my list from my 03.01.11 post:

1. Eat less. WAY LESS. Esp during buffets.. =D
2. Understand math !!!
~~3. Get my G1 & G2 = license~~
4. Get a Job
I Get JieSheng a DSLR
~~II Get Joanna that Adidas bag/Hoodie~~
(Got her mom a Swarovski Necklace?)
~~III Get an external hard drive~~
IV Pay rent
5. Be super focused in school/ Don't Procrastinate!!
6. Experiment more with food & drinks.
~~7. Get to university (not sure if this is an option o_O)~~
8. Learn how to make wings & fly back to Malaysia! xP

So yea, for the most part I've kinda done everything except for the things that I can't necessarily help with? Miao. But back to what I was gonna say. There is one very important thing they don't tell you in that little blue Ontario Driving Book.

Sometimes, you just crossing the street. Pedestrians are suppose to have the right of way all the time right, but you know how some annoying people just don't stop. Now I know the book says, try your best to not like.... cause road rage or like don't be angry or that shit right.

But the truth is, if you're crossing the road, and the car just keeps coming at ya.... what you do is.... you point your index finger upwards, you make a sudden pause, you glare till they stop, and then your proceed with your walking.

You may think I'm kidding, but trust me, this works everytime. Not that I do it very often, fortunately. Now this doesn't work all the time, cause the driver may just be ridiculous and refuses to stop. In this case, your hand still goes up and you still glare, you just don't stand in the middle where the car can hit you. Simple.

Listening to "Come Home" by One Republic